alone..

Peace be upon with you,,

To readers especially Joe, this is what happened yesterday-[Saturday]

Sitting on the chair, focusing on the laptop screen and thinking how to complete my bio lab report, I felt strange. Why Joe and Zizi were in rush? Were they going to somewhere I think? I just ignored them because I wanted to concentrate on my report. But, it got more interesting when they were chit-chatting about some party or something. I went into their room.

Me : korg nak pegi mane?
Joe : kitorg ade function nak pegi. So,blh x ko tolong jage kan rumah?
Me: oo,,ok,,no hal,,,function ape?
Joe: function, party kawan american kitorg,,
Me: owh,,ok

I continued my work, while they were preparing themselves for the function. Then, boss came into the house with najmi.

Boss: korg da siap ke blom?
Joe: da nak siap la nih.

The thing that made me feel strange was, najmi and boss were wearing baju melayu. Were they going to the same place? bcoz joe and jiji didn't wear the baju melayu. But, I didn't care, maybe they had 2 different functions. Maybe. After couple of minutes, they left me.

Joe: nah ni kunci rumah. nanti kalau ade ape2 kitorg call.
Me: Okay!!

They gone and i was alone. I felt akward because i was in someone's home. The silence of the home made me even more alone. I didn't know what to do except workig in my work. I needed to find earphones because I wanted to listen to my phone. Somehow, I tried to search it at joe's desk and found one. Sony earphone. I took it and eventually, something poped up on joe's laptop screen, and i read it.

Pao: korg bile nak blah pegi umah aku?
Joe: nak pegilah nie.
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My mouth was shutted up, the time had stopped for a while, and my body sat at the corner of the room. My body was so weak. My mind didn't want to remember that moment when I was reading that thing. Somehow, while sat alone, in the quite room, my tears came out from my brown eyes. I didn't know why. I couldn't help myself. I tried to stop the tears but I couldn't. So, my watery eyes let the tears flow nonstop.

I felt homesick. I felt alone. And I felt an empty heart of me. It was not because I was being left by joe and zizi. They didn't do anything. It was my fault to cry like a baby. My fault. It was just my fault that I don't have any best friends. Because of that, I'm being alone all the time. I thought I wanna go back home, ride my scooter, watch movie at KLCC and do anything else. Without anybody because it's good being alone. No one would disturb my business. But, I didn't know why I changed here. I have a very long thought at that time. after a whie, I knew, sometimes, being alone is really peacefull, but sometimes,being alone is really hurt too.

My tears had stopped. I wiped it with my shirt and felt relieved because I have never ever cried since the day I was so homesick at home. Things went back normal. But still in pain, I walked through the door and continued my work. After almost an hour, my phone was ringing.

Joe: Hello Shah,
Me: Oh, Hye Joe,
Joe: Nape nie Shah, ko nangis ke?
Me: Eh, xde la. Aku mane ade nangis...
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And the day was continued,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

SORRY to everyone bacause I become emo again.

Wassalam