Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Maybe this post is not interesting as I want to write of what I feel yesterday and today.
Oct 28, MarketPlace Mall, Around 3-6pm.
I went to the mall to buy a Halloween costume and a winter coat. Actually, I really wanted to buy that things last weekend, but sadly, even XS size shirt didn't fit me well. So, I decided to think about it again weather I need to buy the winter coat or not. As my friends have already bought, so I immediately go to the Mall. It's okay to buy large one as long as I like it. First, I went to Halloween costume shop and searched a proper costume for me. Then, I picked one (It's just a usual costume, nothing horror with it)
Then, I went to Aeropostale to searched for the cheapest jacket I could get. But somehow, they didn't have XS size. It was really disappointed as Aeropostale is the only shop that provides less expensive outwear than other outlets. Sigh. So, I walked to AE. Hurm. I checked the 50% discount for 2nd item special was still available. There were lots of people inside the shop. I checked the jacket that I like to buy and thank god, it was still there. So, I grabbed it and paid it.
The end of my day
Eh. At the mall, dla called me to buy the flight ticket because it was cheap at that time. Sigh, I couldn't purchase it at my phone. PROBLEM PROBLEM.
Oct 29, Residence Hall, Quarter Mile, Library.
After finishing my shower at 815am, I look outside the window to see the sky. It's quit gloomy. But I don't think it will make my day also gloomy like them. Checking my email, preparing my stuff, thinking my future, I'm ready to go to library. Yeah, somehow I need to study for my chemistry exam tomorrow (I hate you *o* *a**a*a*e-I don't understand what the f****** thing that you taught yesterday.)
And again, I look outside to see the day. It's raining I guess. So, my white hoodie becomes my chosen sweater to wear. I really hope that rain is not heavy till I reach at the library. Walking outside the dorm and go to the walkpath, I shocked. It's not really that shocked. I'm just excited. It is not raining. It's SNOWING. Hurm, I checked the white small ball falling on my hand first weather it's really snowing or 'hujan batu'. Yeah It's snow. So, I enjoy my way to the library with snow. Haha. It's really fun. Ye la. Never ever feel the snow at Malaysia.
Ok la. End of the story.
Monday, October 27, 2008
"smekom bang da mkn lum....mkn ape....mama sntiasa doakn abg shat slalu, kuat smangat dan sntiasa ingatkan Allah. belajar rajin2, jngan mudah putus asa.try your best dan pandai2 jaga diri.kami sntiasa rindu kat abg."
"abg da mkn....makan nasi lauk ayam...abg rindu korg semue jue."
p/s: ingat family, InyaAllah berkat blajar,,,
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Yesterday, at 230pm, me, jijie and joe arrived at the sports arena to play dodgeball. I thougt we were late but eventually, zul was the only malaysian there. How pity. Haha. But, others malaysians seniors were coming after us and it was unexpected number. Most all of malaysian students came to play dodgeball. Wow.
Then, we played that game.I was in team C. Originally, the members of that team were me, din, hawa, kina, azlina and I forget. Somehow,when we were playing, we always loose with other teams. Gosh, when our last game, others malaysians betrayed their teams and joined out team, and we won. LOL. It's okay, at least we won once. I was really tired at that time as I have never ever played sports since at Intec, playing frisbee.
Then, we ate pizza together, prayed and again, played other game. Badminton. Badminton is a sport that I used to play it when I was in primary school. I played it just for fun. But somehow, when I took the racquet and played with joe, it was really erm,,,dunno what to say,,memorable I think,,It was fun when play together although for only a match.
Before went back home, we and other sophomore seniors were having dinner at Wok With You. I ordered squid ape ntah and it was nice. I wonder when can I go there again. When I arrived at RC, I was so tired. I felt asleep at 1100 pm i think.
During my sleep, I have a Perfect Dream. To make it short, I was dreaming that I confessed my love to a person named A. Plus, A immediately accepted my proposal and I was really happy and shocked. I couldn't think anything happier than this happy moment.
But somehow, when I woke up, I knew it just only a dream. A dream that would never ever become reality as A already has a mate,I guess, or even A wouldn't accept me as who I am. Haha. because of that, it is only A PERFECT DREAM. It's okay to have it in a dream world rather than never experience it. Am I right?
All in all, I post a video, Mimpi Yang Sempurna by Peter Pan,
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Here's the thing. This weekdays (20-25 oct), I have never planned to make myself emo again. Although I'm really sensitive in certain2 issues, I tried to avoid them and acted as the normal SHAH who people know before. Somehow, I aimed to finish all my homework as much as I could so I may waste some of my time during this weekend by sleeping. Eventually, lots of things happened to other Malaysians students here that really made them HAPPY.
Some of them are HAPPY after gone through essay work from writing seminar, some of them are HAPPY and have a long HAPPY sigh after taking 2 exams in a day, some of them are HAPPY that they could complete all the homework before weekends got started, some of them are excited and HAPPY to play rockband 2 at Naje's house, some of them are HAPPY after shopping at the mall, some of them are HAPPY when they feel lots of free time than last week, and the most HAPPY thing is, some of them are HAPPY after get new couple and HAPPY to reveal their relationships to other friends. All in all, all of them are HAPPY this week!!
Am I HAPPY??,,hurm,,maybe I would say NEUTRAL,,except for yesterday activity,,somehow I'm HAPPY as I could spent some free time outside RIT. After solat Jumaat, my seniors and I went out to mall to shop some dress and have some window shopping. Erm,,somehow,,I got dissappointed here when whenever I wanna buy a hoodies or shirt here, I couldn't fit with any XS size!!,,haiyo,,it is because the shirt is long that could cover my butt,,,sigh,,I wonder maybe I need to find my outwear from kids section.
Then, we went to cinema to watch movies. Actually a movie, because when my seniors were watching SAW V, I didn't watch it as I opened my phone and watched japanese drama, STAND UP, starring by yamapi and others,,,wahahahaha,,,Then, we watched HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3, SENIOR YEAR, it was so exciting when we watched the movie but it started to get annoying some other people were shouting and screaming whenever TROY BOLTON (ZAC EFRON) appeared in the movie. All about ZAC EFRON,,,sigh,,,
And for the last place was WalMart. we bought foods, halloween things and others. I didn't buy anything except SNEAKERS WITH ICE CREAM!!!,,,yea,,,
To all my HAPPY friends and seniors, I wish you good luck in whatever you are doing right now. To all my HAPPY couple friends and seniors, I wish you all HAPPY forever (nak makan nasik minyak jgn lupe ajak)
I posted a videa entitled "OH HAPPY DAY" , from japanese drama, My Boss My Hero. Enjoy.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I have nothing to write because all my days before were going usual without anything. It just I'm fall in love with this song by Vanessa Hudgens, "Say Ok". I don't why suddenly I love to see this video. Maybe she is very cute when playing bowling. But when I read the lyric of this song, then I feel that, this 'love song' is very special that can be use to whom is started to get into coupling world or already in it. I don't know. Plus, the tempo of this song is really harmony, I could feel she sang the song with full of her expression. Haha.
So,my advice from this post is, don't run away. Don't run if you have the chance. That's all.
p/s: lagu ini juga blh ditujukan kepada rakan2 baik anda,,adakah mereka benar2 kawan baik anda??,,atau sekadar musang berbulukan ayam??
p/s: pissed off sebab I lost my pen drive!!!,,,
Monday, October 20, 2008
I just wanna write about what I have felt today,,
After I finish my chemistry lab, the crowd of people starts to flood the hallway. I go out from the room, and check my box at the second floor. As I expected, there is the blue sheet of papers and yup, it is my midterm bio paper. I thought I have forgotten its pain but it isn't. I really don't want to look at it as I have already fed up with those of crappy things. Keeping that thing inside my bag, my body starts to get weak suddenly. And my heart could feel the worriness of my soul.
Before I walk away from Gosnell Building, my fingers turn on my playlist on the phone. With the song 'say Ok', I don't know why my heart really really sad and anxious about anything. My steps are getting shorter, my speed is getting slower, and the time is getting longer. More than unusual. My eyes watch toward some bunch of trees with yellow leafs. Then I turn it at the sky. It is dark. What a gloomy MoNdAy, and as gloomy as myself. The chorus of that song even makes me more sad. Then, i see everyone that is on my view, are they the same with me? I could feel the broken heart mine, but I don't know why. And I really want to throw it out far far away but I couldn't.
Yeah, it is true. I am confused. Lots of things need to be settled. And I messed it up. Just one thing that is inside my mind, when this thing gonna end forever? Can anyone answer it? Sigh, I really wanna cry but I couldn't because my eyes hold it. On my way back home, it starts to rain, and I'm relieved. Because rain understands me, cries for me, and same with me.
P/S: I'm sorry for everything,,,
Sunday, October 19, 2008
I really don't have any idea what topic to write about because I'm not allowed to write about sad things. So, I just came out with a really boring title, Significance of October.
What is happened on October? Maybe it just a usual 10th month of the year for other person but I'm slightly different from them as I have many experiences on certains days.
~ First on foremost, today is my birthday. I'm not promoting my birthday. It just reality that I'm born on Octobr 19th 1989. And that means I'm 19 years old. Many of my friends said that at last, I'm turned old. But, when I'm investigating all the RIT Malaysian Students, I'm the youngest!!,,So,, they should treat me as the youngest who needs care and love. Haha. Kidding. For me, I don't think 19 is old, it just the number just keep increasing as I grow up. That's all. It has been years I have not celebrated my day as I got busy with all stuff. Last year, it was Raya moment. Last 2 years, I was busy with SPM, and for past few years, I was staying in hostel and somehow it was difficult for me to tell everyone, "Hari ni birthday aku". But, as long as my friends wish me for luck, it's more than OK. So, Happy Birthday to me.
~ I still remember I took my PMR on October 3rd at school. At that time, I was really scared in taking the national exams as last my compulsary exam was UPSR. Rumors said that, if I didn't get straight A's in PMR, I would be kicked out from my school. At that time, I did bad in English and History. Plus, after I took all the exams, I didn't expect to get all A's as I was not confident to get A's in both of the subject. But at last, Alhamdulillah I got all A's. HAHA. How lucky I am.
~ Everyone knows in past few years, Raya was celebrated on October. So, I wish Happy Eid Ul Fitr to all of you. Next year we will celebrate Raya on September. May Allah give us opportunity to have Syawal next year. Amin.
~ To my friends or whoever read this post that born in October, I wish Happy Birthday. Frem, Mar, Ad, Afnan, Mohan, Happy Birthday dudes. Sorry if I'm not listing some other names. I'm bad in memorizing stuffs.
~ When the 12 am moment came to celebrate my 19th years, I was sleeping. How pathetic.
~ Actually, Man Che' is the youngest since he was born slightly little bit late from me. 12 days. But, I don't think he should be treated as youngest as he is now in sophomore year and I'm Freshman!! (Is it mean that Manche is still 18??,,cepatnye matang,,hahaha,,,)
Friday, October 17, 2008
~Am I a drama queen wanna be??
Eh HELLO!!,,aku laki kot,,(the anonymous must be someone I know)
~If I said I am well prepared, meaning I am not even studying anything??
Eh HELLO!!,,If I study, I well prepared,,even not to the fullest.
~By writing all of the crappy miserable life on the blog wont make me feel any better??
Eh HELLO!!,,at least I do not keep it in my soul and make myself even worse. Plus, somehow it would relieve myself even better.
~Am I such a loser??
Eh HELLO!!,,ko lagi loser kot, anonymous konon, kalau nak bagi advice pon, biarlah bertempat. I know harsh words would affect me. But actually, I have get used to that crap thing. No offense. Plus, u r such a f'***ing b***h LOSER!!!
Okay. The things above this is special to anonymous if he or she read this blog again. (I hope he or she is not someone I know,,I hope so!!!)
~Be like a phoenix that rises from the ashes....
Erm,,phoenix is a type of bird. I'm not a bird. Instead I'm a man!!,,Haha,,juz kidding,,I will try,,little by little,,
Ko msti ade kwn rpt kt msia kn, or kt US tp kt uni lain...
~I do have friends, but not the type that would listen to my problems..I have never ever told my problems to others to others except I am writing it on this blog..haha..but anyway,,I would overcome it,,
Stop being childish la bang.aiyoo.Mama dengan Ayah tau baru tau...
~Heh!!,,lps nie jgn tunjuk langsung blog aku kat mama dgn ayah,,nie hal anak mude,,anak sulong,,ko je sorg taw da sudah,,ok???
SUMPAH aku tak pernah nampak ko nangis kot.I wonder how would it looks like.hehehe,,
Ko dh parah ni aku rase...
~Xde la parah mane,,It just I couldn't help myself to write my feel on this blog. That's all.
Shah, get yourself a girlfriend!! LoL gf always helps u in the time of need :p,,
~ERM,,,errr,,,no comment la,,because I,,,erm,,er,,hurm,,Dunno what to say. It just like I'm not ready into couple world. Plus, if wanna find one,,it's hard for me because,,,erm,,kor taw lah aku mcm mane,,,LOL!!!!
Ape kate ko restrict blog ko?
AAAAA,,,tgh dalam perancangan,,,
And maybe ko bleh stop tulis cerite2 sedih. get a new focus. and blurrkan focus misery,,
I will, just wait and see. I need time.believe me I will,,
~aku xtau nk ckp ape dh. aku lapa nk g makan jap.+ pape pn aku nk supper lak. bye.
Erm,,makan makan,,sile sile,,jgn overweight lps nie sudah,,,LOL,,kiddin',,makan makan,,
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
While walking on the quarter mile, going back to my room after MySA general meeting, I don't know why I feel so down today. Yeah, I accept that today is quit bz with the classes, meeting, Malaysian booth, presidential debate and other work. Plus, maybe my bad grade for bio midterm is still in my head, spinning around and make it even worse than usual. Somehow, I feel like I'm trapped in crowd. No one would notice my body except my soul. The cold breeze made my mouth chattering nonstop. I walked faster because I wanted to go to library for the debate.
In the room, as I performed Isya' solah, I remembered past memories, past accidents and past of whatever I did. I could feel the emptiness of my heart and no one could fill it except someone called friend. Somehow I am a ittle bit jealous when people are taking care of their best friends. So sweet. It just like they would go anywhere, do anything by together. And I'm not part of that lucky people. I want to find one but somehow no one interested. So, I need to use to be alone even its hurt. No choice I guess.
When I finished my solah, I sat on the sejadah while keep thinking the reality of me. Yeah, it's true my life is miserable. And again, the tears came out from my eyes but I did stop it before it flowed on my cheek. I don't know the reason for that tears. Oh, maybe myself is pity for myownself. I didn't want to make it worse. Packing my back, I went out from the room, walked to the library. On my way, there is nothing inside my head except, keep thingking about my past, my present and my future. Is it gonna be always miserable??
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
I don't know what to write since people keep talking about my 'emo' problem. Whatever it is, there is something that i need to tell everyone, sorry for everything. That's all. Maybe I should do something, but somehow, later lah. And one more thing, I am not you and you are not me. I am myself. So, people will never ever understand of what I feel, what I gain and what the pain that I face. No one. Then, .........ntah la,,no idea what to write.
Ok, go back to the topic. Failed. I even not believe when I see my grade in mycourses. It shows to me that I failed in midterm exam introbio1 falll 2008. Am I too bad??,,urgh,,There is something wrong with me. AAAAAA. But I don't know why. I have studied enough. Hurm,,ntah la. Haiyo, this thing would make me 'emo' again. Sigh,,apela nasib malang yang menimpa diriku ini. After this problem, come other problem. Sigh..................( a very very very long sigh.....),,ape nak jadik nih??
Wassalam,,(mmg down btol skrg nie)
Sunday, October 12, 2008
To readers especially Joe, this is what happened yesterday-[Saturday]
Sitting on the chair, focusing on the laptop screen and thinking how to complete my bio lab report, I felt strange. Why Joe and Zizi were in rush? Were they going to somewhere I think? I just ignored them because I wanted to concentrate on my report. But, it got more interesting when they were chit-chatting about some party or something. I went into their room.
Me : korg nak pegi mane?
Joe : kitorg ade function nak pegi. So,blh x ko tolong jage kan rumah?
Me: oo,,ok,,no hal,,,function ape?
Joe: function, party kawan american kitorg,,
I continued my work, while they were preparing themselves for the function. Then, boss came into the house with najmi.
Boss: korg da siap ke blom?
Joe: da nak siap la nih.
The thing that made me feel strange was, najmi and boss were wearing baju melayu. Were they going to the same place? bcoz joe and jiji didn't wear the baju melayu. But, I didn't care, maybe they had 2 different functions. Maybe. After couple of minutes, they left me.
Joe: nah ni kunci rumah. nanti kalau ade ape2 kitorg call.
They gone and i was alone. I felt akward because i was in someone's home. The silence of the home made me even more alone. I didn't know what to do except workig in my work. I needed to find earphones because I wanted to listen to my phone. Somehow, I tried to search it at joe's desk and found one. Sony earphone. I took it and eventually, something poped up on joe's laptop screen, and i read it.
Pao: korg bile nak blah pegi umah aku?
Joe: nak pegilah nie.
My mouth was shutted up, the time had stopped for a while, and my body sat at the corner of the room. My body was so weak. My mind didn't want to remember that moment when I was reading that thing. Somehow, while sat alone, in the quite room, my tears came out from my brown eyes. I didn't know why. I couldn't help myself. I tried to stop the tears but I couldn't. So, my watery eyes let the tears flow nonstop.
I felt homesick. I felt alone. And I felt an empty heart of me. It was not because I was being left by joe and zizi. They didn't do anything. It was my fault to cry like a baby. My fault. It was just my fault that I don't have any best friends. Because of that, I'm being alone all the time. I thought I wanna go back home, ride my scooter, watch movie at KLCC and do anything else. Without anybody because it's good being alone. No one would disturb my business. But, I didn't know why I changed here. I have a very long thought at that time. after a whie, I knew, sometimes, being alone is really peacefull, but sometimes,being alone is really hurt too.
My tears had stopped. I wiped it with my shirt and felt relieved because I have never ever cried since the day I was so homesick at home. Things went back normal. But still in pain, I walked through the door and continued my work. After almost an hour, my phone was ringing.
Joe: Hello Shah,
Me: Oh, Hye Joe,
Joe: Nape nie Shah, ko nangis ke?
Me: Eh, xde la. Aku mane ade nangis...
And the day was continued,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
SORRY to everyone bacause I become emo again.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
I never realized, I've been here almost 2 months. 2 months is not short, it's long. 6 weeks left to the end of fall2008. Gee, I wonder when all of this gonna end. I don't know what to write coz i don't have any story to be written here. Juz wanna say that I'm still new in blogging world. Hehe. Whoever read this thing, have a nice day!!..
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Tetibe plak rase nak emo. X taw la plak nape nak emo. Bak kate ikut kate hati, buat je kalau nak buat. So, aku tulis je lah ape yang nak tulis. Lagipon, kalau aku tulis bende merepek pon, ape aku kesah. I just wanna do something to disteress myself instead of listening to music or sleeping. Aku rase nak buat ayat best sket, blh x?
Tika aku melihat luar jendela, ku buka tirai agar mata perangku jelas akan suasana malam, malam yang penuh syahdu, malam yang penuh angin deru, malam yan penuh dengan maksud tersirat yang masih terungkai satu persatu. Jauh dari sudut hati meronta, adakah aku diketahuan orang? adakah aku masih mampu berdiri keseorangan? adakah aku masih ketinggalan? adakah aku sudah sempurnakan niat hatiku?
Mungkin jawapan di mulut berkata benar, namun jawapan di hati bermadah tidak. Dalam kegelapan malam, tiada bulan untuk menerangi, hanya tinggal sinar neon dari sudut bangunan perang memancarkan cahaya. Aku terfikir, dimanakah aku di dalam kegelapan malam itu? batu? pohon? angin? Bolehkan aku menjawab, tidak? Tidak semua dari itu, bukan batu, bukan pohon, mahupun bukan angin. Aku bukan mereka. Aku tiada antara mereka. Aku bukan sebahagian dari mereka. Adakah ini dikatakan aku tiada siapa??
Bak kata orang, hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu dalih. Ya, aku tahu, aku ingat, dan aku faham. Sesungguhnya kehidupan itu satu cabaran bagi manusia yang lemah lagi hina. Namun persoalannya, adakah hati ini masih mampu bertahan? Bertahan berdiri keseorangan? Bertahan menerima beban mendatang? Hanya kata kata ini yang keluar dari sudut hatiku, cukuplah, sudahlah, berhentilah. Namun, ia tetap tidak berhenti. hati semakin terasa berat,berat yang teramat amat berat, hingga aku merasa hendak jatuh tika berjalan di jalanan lurus.
Aku tidak mengerti. Adakah ada orang lain sepertiku? atau aku yang paling malang antara yang malang? Bukan. Bukan itu soalan ku. Adakah aku masih waras? Bukan. adekah aku masih mampu? Itu pon bukan. Ape yang aku pinta? Ye, ape yang aku pinta mungkin persoalan yang patut ditanye. Namun aku tidak mahu, kerana permintaan aku itu tidak masuk akal. Amat tidak masuk akal. Aku diam, mata ditutup, jauh lagi di sudut hati berkata, inilah hakikat hidup aku. Inilah takdir hidup aku. Inilah realiti hidup aku.
Aku lepaskan pandangan mataku dari malam. Kalau diteruskan renungan fantasi itu, mungkin aku akan berkhayal entah kemana. Aku berkemas untuk pulang ke kamar. Setiap kali kakiku melangkah, aku terfikir soalan tadi. Ape yang aku pinta? Sebenar-benarnya??
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Can someone show me the best track that I could hear??,,uhuh??,,Like songs from any artists. Because I'm kinda boring to hear the same song every moment I open my laptop or phone. But somehow, certain tracks make me remember the old story when I was in high school. It's so much fun. I still remember when the first time I bought a MP3, I was so exited because at that time, MP3 was the new modern music player that is small, light compared to CD player. So, I downloaded lots os Malay tracks and englisg songs.
Eventually, I lost my MP3 at school for 3 times and it was so not cool. I cursed the thiefs who have ever stole my belongings the day when they born. Uhurm. then I changed my MP3 era to MP3 phone era. My first handphone is motorola C360 I think, then I changed it ti Motorola L7 and again I changed to SE W590i,the shake phone. HAHA. It's all just juz about tracks.I love listening to music although I'm not very uptodated with the latest, popular tracks. But whatever it is, I still listening to music because with it, I could release my tension. Music is my life. May so, but what I could say is music is a part of my lonely life. Hehe.
Lastly, let me list some tracks that I love to hear right now
2. One step at a time
3. Real me (japan song)
4. It is me
5. Gotta find you
6. Ku tlah jatuh cinta
7. 4 in the morning
8. Take a bow
10. My immortal
i know all the songs are the old one but whatever.
I wanna stop here. Just thinking the right TRACK for me again.
Monday, October 6, 2008
This was the moment,,the moment with full of exitement,,the game of mafia,,hehe,,Top 4,,me,,kina,,ecah and jijie,,everyone defensed themselves,,"don't kill me!!,,i'm the villager!!",,OMG,,I love this moment!!,,LOL,,
Thanx 2 manche' coz uploading the video,,wassalam
First Day - Friday - October 3rd 2008
At 5 pm, people started to come and eat the food. Lots of foods were available,,tomato rice,,red chicken,,tom yam,,mee hoon,,murtabak,,batik cake,,pudding, kuih goyang, and wutsoever. BTW,,jiji, joe and aimi mule la nak rase bangge sebab other people said their food was tasty and wutsoever. HAHA. ade la credit utk mereke. And dat night we were playing the most popular game among us,,MAFIA,,Kak zira and i onc became the mafias,,and we won!!,,YEEHAAH!!,,
The open house ended at 10 pm++,,so,,we started to clean up all the stuffs and wutever,,did some homework and the catched some sleep!!
Me - had the instinct that jijie was the mafia,,but at last,,changed to kentang(jahat giler)
kentang - very talkative,,tried to make me and kina believed that jijie was the mafia,,
kina - confused,,confused,,confused,,and confused,,at last,,kentang was the victim
jijie - clever actor,,tried to cnvince me that kentang was the mafia and not him,,
Al last,,kentang was killed,,and jijie won because he was the mafia,,ces,,,
Night came,,before we were going back to racquet club,,we did some exercise,,japan exercise kot,,dunno what is the name,,btw,,it's fun,,arrived at racquet club,,i slept because didn't have energy to stay awake.
That is the story,,ade gak other story that happened but that was just only minor thingy,,,ahah!!,,till we meet next time,,,adios!!
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Straight to the point, I'm really stressed out today. I have been thinking about upcoming Intro Bio Exam next week that may be a killer to me although some my seniors said that it was easy if you read,understand and remember whatever Dr Pough taught. The case is,I hate to read books and I'm not good in memorizing. Plus, it makes me sick when I have to read that thick text book all over again. Hurm...
Then, I have Chemistry exam, also will be held on next week!!,,Joe is confusing me in his lecture. Sigh. And again. Study!! I need to score in chemistry because it is the only hope subject that I have. I'm bad in all other subject, BIO, WRITING.
Next week assignment. Lab report for chemistry!!,,thanx to Yu Ling because she's willing to be my partner. But, I still need to complete it because its due on next monday and I didn't do anything yet!!Daaaa
Lab report and notebook for bio. I don't want to comment!!,,LOTS,,TONS,,NUMEROUS,,UNCOUNTABLE!!!
Argument essay by Prof Mahar. The same problem I face since I was so tiny young. I'm bad in ENGLISH, I'm bad in WRITING and I"m bad in WHATEVER RELATED TO ENGLISH!!,,
All the mastering thingy with online quizes!!,,$!^%$#$^&%*!@*!!@*
Yeah. It is not for the first time I got stressed like this but this is the worst feeling that I ever get. Lots of other problems circling my mind. Money, works, sleep, entertaiment, winter, malaysia, family and etc.
The reality is, when all the things got messed up, I kinda lazy. I feel just like, just let go everything happens. Whatever.
I don't think I want to write more. It's sad to read, but much more painful to feel it.
I hope this thing gonna end soon although no one would read this blog anyway. (xde peminat)
over stressed (maybe)