i hate u

i hate u,,even i know u will not ever read this,,i hate u,,arghh!!
curse u ***!! will not ever talk to u again..sigh..

memories

I slept at 9pm# woke up at 12am, then thought about the past till 2am.

And the best part was, I suddenly felt this kind so hard-to-explain-this-damn feeling.

Memories

I would say my almost whole life is useless. So many things have not been fully accomplished by me. Even worse, I just can't make them better. Such a loser. Sigh, if I could change the past, I would not feel so terrible right now.

Famous quote; the ship that will not sink forever is friendship. From my point of view, friend is someone that I know, and I could tell he/she is nice enough to talk about daily life matters. Yeah, I have lots of them back to my high school, INTEC, etc. Some of them are used to be my lets-do-things-together buddies and I appreciate them (a lot). I don't know if this situation just happens to me or anyone else, but somehow I lost contact with them when I moved to INTEC and then RIT.

I don't know if they still remember me or not but it makes me feel alone. Back to my high school, I was not a very popular student because I was not hot (kidding), but I have some good friends especially among girls. I admit it's good to be friends with girls with some reasons. Haha. But everything seems like so fuzzy, feels like, ok we stop being friends when we moved to a new place. Is it?

Yeah, I left comments to them via facebook, and I feel so sad when not many of them replied. I am so grateful when I still have some of them who are still contacting me till now. Thanks gman, syafiq, dem, azri and the gang. I really miss you all. Same things happen to my INTEC life, even it just 9 months. But I would not write anything about it because the story is almost the same.

What else? Yeah, I am a sinful person. Lots of things changed drastically since I moved to higher education institution. You all know I am an ex-badar and whatsoeverother positions in high school. Even though its not a big one, but still a sin right? Small matters even the slightest things I do, I just realized it now. How pathetic I am. Sigh.

Education problems. I'm getting lazier. Enough said. But I still survive though. @.@ . Erm, maybe not for this winter quarter. ORGO. ahhhhh. hahahahaha. killer subject. Not going to survive. >.< . Things that I always think right now. Graduate early, get a job, get the money, and live the way I want. And not forget, planning for 'cuti2 Malaysia' vacation this second half summer.

Hurm, I want to stop. Sleepy already. Sorry for the this long and notpoeticwhatever english I used. Sorry. My english is bad. Can't help. Not vocabrichtypepersontowriteswirlingsentenceswhatsoever. Mine is simple.

Till next time people. Appreciate you could survive reading this crap till now. Omedeto.. =)

sleepy and hungry

SHAH

today's story

Hari nie mmg fuck giler..aku x taw nape..Followings are the things happened today that made today is a f***king day

1. In japanese class. I dropped my pencil case 5 times..urgh!!!

2. I left my orgo textbook in the lab at 12.00 pm. I didn't realize until 1.30 pm. And what makes it even worse. I forgot where the hell did i put the textbook. I walked around all over the place in building 8 and SAU, met Asma (5 times y'all), almost an hour I spent just only to find the book. At last, during microb lab, I found that f***ing heavy book. Where? the place where gloves are placed. F**k 123456789x

3. I thought today's lab gonna be short and simple, but it was not. For whatever reason, the reagents were all f**king 'whatever'. Like seriously, i don't wanna say about that.

4. just calculated my allowance from the very first I got to the US. And what? I have already gotten my book's allowance twice. Meaning, I will not get the allowance until next year. OMG, how am I gonna get money to buy ticket going back to MALAYSIA???,,anyone wanna help me??..oh please..

5. I wanna study orgo. but apparently, the ACE ORGANIC homework was too difficult, and I'm straying away doing other stuff. F**k orgo test 3 on Friday. Whatever Dr. Smith..

sigh, ashita, ii nichi ni narimashitane!!!

shah iry

doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimatandarou....

feel so empty

fragile and quite

sigh...

wish u were here

sigh..

I have my friend....

Assalamualaikum,,

I have my friend....

who agreed with my fb status...

he said he also had the same 'studies' problem with me..

And I replied, 'bwk sabar je la,,bln oktober nie mmg byk dugaan'

LOL!!!

I have my friend.....

now studying at Jakarta,,medic student..

I asked, "mcm mane kat sane?,,ade rase gempa x?'

And he said, 'kat sini x rase ape2, kat padang kowt!!'

I felt so 'bodoh' coz the tragedy happened at padang, and not at jakarta,,

URGH!!!

I have my friend....

in Malaysia and just get his brand new iphone..

He asked me, "cane nak download app kat sini?"

I replied, "pegi jah kedai telepon, nanti die bg free jah"

He said, 'aku da pi kedai apple, die kate aku kene beli sendiri'

And I replied with, ''''@.@''''

I have my friend

'ym'ed me, 'party in the USA la'

and I shocked coz I was listening to that song at that time,

I replied, 'aku tgh dgr la nie, tp paparazzi lg best'

He said, 'paparazzi best tp video die mcm......................'

last2, I 'ym'ed him, 'aku suke video die, biar la....'

I have few friends

'gossip telling' time with lots of halal cheeseburgers,

hot2 issues were discussed,

and dang!!,,I said 4 minutes b4 class started (not mine),

and they replied, 'LAB JAH!!!'

I have my friend

actually my aunts and uncle!!

who are about the same age as me,,

adding my fb and asking my 'khabar' here,,

and I just, 'diam seribu bahase'....

And I have my friend,

'fb'ing me during class hours

he said, 'AIREE!!!!'

and I didn't reply at all

SORRY!!!!

Wassalam

If you know me, you will regret

I'm telling the truth,

Based on my past memory,

Since I was a little child,

Nothing so good to happen,

Just things cannot be more wierd.

-iry-

tell me your wish.....

Assalamualaikum...

sowoneul marhaebwa! I'm genie for you, girl!

At last after 3 months of holiday, I feel so damn good staying in Malaysia with family. Hurm, I didn't have any interesting activity during the holiday. Just working as a part time floor service at secret recipe, my old workplace. Haha. That's it. No vacation. No trip. But, at least I went to KL every weekend watching movies and meeting my friends. I'm not that 'xde life' of workaholic or something.

So, I'll be going back this morning. As usual, Cathay Pacific airline. And the most crucial one, I'm all alone. Sigh, I have already requested for the flight changes, but they said it's fully booked. No immediate changes until 15 sept. Sigh, so, no choice. I have to. But it's okay. I make as a challenge or me. I'm not a teenager anymore. I'm a young male adult. Huhu.

I hope I could survive for this 36 hours of journey. KUL-HKG(4 hours), HKG airport(4 hours), HKG-JFK(16 hours), JFK airport(10 hours), JFK-ROC(2 hours). I know I will be so tired when I arrive at Rochester. Sigh. Okay, it's a REAL challenge to me. aiyark.

Ok, don't know hat to write. Just pray for my save journey. That's all. Ok. Bye2

Wassalam.