memories

I slept at 9pm# woke up at 12am, then thought about the past till 2am.

And the best part was, I suddenly felt this kind so hard-to-explain-this-damn feeling.

Memories

I would say my almost whole life is useless. So many things have not been fully accomplished by me. Even worse, I just can't make them better. Such a loser. Sigh, if I could change the past, I would not feel so terrible right now.

Famous quote; the ship that will not sink forever is friendship. From my point of view, friend is someone that I know, and I could tell he/she is nice enough to talk about daily life matters. Yeah, I have lots of them back to my high school, INTEC, etc. Some of them are used to be my lets-do-things-together buddies and I appreciate them (a lot). I don't know if this situation just happens to me or anyone else, but somehow I lost contact with them when I moved to INTEC and then RIT.

I don't know if they still remember me or not but it makes me feel alone. Back to my high school, I was not a very popular student because I was not hot (kidding), but I have some good friends especially among girls. I admit it's good to be friends with girls with some reasons. Haha. But everything seems like so fuzzy, feels like, ok we stop being friends when we moved to a new place. Is it?

Yeah, I left comments to them via facebook, and I feel so sad when not many of them replied. I am so grateful when I still have some of them who are still contacting me till now. Thanks gman, syafiq, dem, azri and the gang. I really miss you all. Same things happen to my INTEC life, even it just 9 months. But I would not write anything about it because the story is almost the same.

What else? Yeah, I am a sinful person. Lots of things changed drastically since I moved to higher education institution. You all know I am an ex-badar and whatsoeverother positions in high school. Even though its not a big one, but still a sin right? Small matters even the slightest things I do, I just realized it now. How pathetic I am. Sigh.

Education problems. I'm getting lazier. Enough said. But I still survive though. @.@ . Erm, maybe not for this winter quarter. ORGO. ahhhhh. hahahahaha. killer subject. Not going to survive. >.< . Things that I always think right now. Graduate early, get a job, get the money, and live the way I want. And not forget, planning for 'cuti2 Malaysia' vacation this second half summer.

Hurm, I want to stop. Sleepy already. Sorry for the this long and notpoeticwhatever english I used. Sorry. My english is bad. Can't help. Not vocabrichtypepersontowriteswirlingsentenceswhatsoever. Mine is simple.

Till next time people. Appreciate you could survive reading this crap till now. Omedeto.. =)

sleepy and hungry

SHAH

today's story

Hari nie mmg fuck giler..aku x taw nape..Followings are the things happened today that made today is a f***king day

1. In japanese class. I dropped my pencil case 5 times..urgh!!!

2. I left my orgo textbook in the lab at 12.00 pm. I didn't realize until 1.30 pm. And what makes it even worse. I forgot where the hell did i put the textbook. I walked around all over the place in building 8 and SAU, met Asma (5 times y'all), almost an hour I spent just only to find the book. At last, during microb lab, I found that f***ing heavy book. Where? the place where gloves are placed. F**k 123456789x

3. I thought today's lab gonna be short and simple, but it was not. For whatever reason, the reagents were all f**king 'whatever'. Like seriously, i don't wanna say about that.

4. just calculated my allowance from the very first I got to the US. And what? I have already gotten my book's allowance twice. Meaning, I will not get the allowance until next year. OMG, how am I gonna get money to buy ticket going back to MALAYSIA???,,anyone wanna help me??..oh please..

5. I wanna study orgo. but apparently, the ACE ORGANIC homework was too difficult, and I'm straying away doing other stuff. F**k orgo test 3 on Friday. Whatever Dr. Smith..

sigh, ashita, ii nichi ni narimashitane!!!

shah iry

doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimatandarou....

feel so empty

fragile and quite

sigh...

wish u were here

sigh..

I have my friend....

Assalamualaikum,,

I have my friend....

who agreed with my fb status...

he said he also had the same 'studies' problem with me..

And I replied, 'bwk sabar je la,,bln oktober nie mmg byk dugaan'

LOL!!!

I have my friend.....

now studying at Jakarta,,medic student..

I asked, "mcm mane kat sane?,,ade rase gempa x?'

And he said, 'kat sini x rase ape2, kat padang kowt!!'

I felt so 'bodoh' coz the tragedy happened at padang, and not at jakarta,,

URGH!!!

I have my friend....

in Malaysia and just get his brand new iphone..

He asked me, "cane nak download app kat sini?"

I replied, "pegi jah kedai telepon, nanti die bg free jah"

He said, 'aku da pi kedai apple, die kate aku kene beli sendiri'

And I replied with, ''''@.@''''

I have my friend

'ym'ed me, 'party in the USA la'

and I shocked coz I was listening to that song at that time,

I replied, 'aku tgh dgr la nie, tp paparazzi lg best'

He said, 'paparazzi best tp video die mcm......................'

last2, I 'ym'ed him, 'aku suke video die, biar la....'

I have few friends

'gossip telling' time with lots of halal cheeseburgers,

hot2 issues were discussed,

and dang!!,,I said 4 minutes b4 class started (not mine),

and they replied, 'LAB JAH!!!'

I have my friend

actually my aunts and uncle!!

who are about the same age as me,,

adding my fb and asking my 'khabar' here,,

and I just, 'diam seribu bahase'....

And I have my friend,

'fb'ing me during class hours

he said, 'AIREE!!!!'

and I didn't reply at all

SORRY!!!!

Wassalam

If you know me, you will regret

I'm telling the truth,

Based on my past memory,

Since I was a little child,

Nothing so good to happen,

Just things cannot be more wierd.

-iry-

tell me your wish.....

Assalamualaikum...

sowoneul marhaebwa! I'm genie for you, girl!

At last after 3 months of holiday, I feel so damn good staying in Malaysia with family. Hurm, I didn't have any interesting activity during the holiday. Just working as a part time floor service at secret recipe, my old workplace. Haha. That's it. No vacation. No trip. But, at least I went to KL every weekend watching movies and meeting my friends. I'm not that 'xde life' of workaholic or something.

So, I'll be going back this morning. As usual, Cathay Pacific airline. And the most crucial one, I'm all alone. Sigh, I have already requested for the flight changes, but they said it's fully booked. No immediate changes until 15 sept. Sigh, so, no choice. I have to. But it's okay. I make as a challenge or me. I'm not a teenager anymore. I'm a young male adult. Huhu.

I hope I could survive for this 36 hours of journey. KUL-HKG(4 hours), HKG airport(4 hours), HKG-JFK(16 hours), JFK airport(10 hours), JFK-ROC(2 hours). I know I will be so tired when I arrive at Rochester. Sigh. Okay, it's a REAL challenge to me. aiyark.

Ok, don't know hat to write. Just pray for my save journey. That's all. Ok. Bye2

Wassalam.

happy to me

Peace be upon with you,,

yeay, i'm officially no longer a freshman. that is, all the problems that i have faced through my first year are now over. nothing to be worried since i would hibernate for the whole summer (can't wait to go back to my hometown) sigh.

through 9 whole months going through all the difficulties in the states, lots of things i have learned. i don't have any intention to make the list but as a conclusion, all of them are really make me act maturer, think maturer. then, be a nice person is the most crucial. that's it.

to my family out there[iwan je kot yg bace], don't worry about me, less than a week we will meet. just pray for my safetiness when i'm on board and everything else. for my studies, hurm, what can i say, err, don't worry too. muahaha. it seems to be my performance for my freshman year is all good. nothing to worry. yeah, i've got some 'b's but as long there is no 'c', it's good enough. 

for flight detail,,erm,,the plane will arrive at klia around 700pm with flight number, cx721. the transit will be from hong kong since i will change the plane there, so don't search for departure from jfk, search for hong kong instead.

so, see u guys, pray for me k,,

wassalam

to all smokers and non-smokers!!,,

Peace be upon with you,,

Dear readers,,i found a great video to watch,,worth it though,,=),,

Ok guys,,see you around,,good luck exam,,=),,

wassalam.

of anything~

Peace be upoen with you,,

As usual, nothing much happened recently except few things..

1. I have 2 more midterm exams this week; algebra & chemistry..(Both of them are all about calculations,,sigh,,)

2. Had Citrawarna and BBQ,,AWESOME!!!

3. 4 weeks left before spring quarter end!!,,yeeeehah!!

4. Received new desktop last Friday,,unspeakable,,=P,,

To all readers,,good luck in your final exams,,jawab pekse elok2,,jgn emo2,,LOL

Wassalam..

p/s: ade ke patot bdk2 frat da start berendam tgh2 mlm!!,,da la buat bising,,isk2,,

bad boy-

Peace be upon with you..

Firstly,,the title of this entry is nothing to do with its contents. Just 'saje2 letak' to fill the box. Sigh, almost a month I haven't updated this blog since the spring quarter started. Common reason = BUSY..ngeee~~.

Updating myself
1. getting busier with events and exams this week and next week,,-.-,,
2. last 4 weeks were not good as I planned,,sigh,,
3. release tension - spend $65 at Hollister + $35 at BR + $85 for my new mp3..=P..
4. Killer subject - IntroBio 3 'mmg x paham' especially kidney thingy,,oh no,,
5. ~controllable ~ less emo ~ do more homework and homework - takusan shukudai wa totemo tanoshidesune. Demo, tokidoki, muzukashi desuyo..ittai!!
6. Currently, i'm obsessed with SNSD a.k.a girl generation - gee - into the new world -LOL

Lately, lots of things happened. some people are emo, some people are 'demam' and some people are 'rilex - x dtg kelas berturut2 in a week - I was like WTF??'. Haha. Whatever. Btw, to all guys outthere,

'jadikan hari ini lebih baik dr semalam, dan hari esok lebih baik dr hr ini'(today is not a good day for me,,aiya)

soreja,,take care.

The Rain in April Brings The Flower in May ~ sorry if the sentence is structurely wrong ..

Wassalam.

Maulidul Rasul

Dengan ini saya mengucapkan

"SELAMAT MENYAMBUT MAULIDUL RASUL"

wassalam

short updates

Peace be upon with you.............

Updating myself:

1. 11 weeks to go till the end of freshmen year!!

2. Happy with winter quarter results =P

3. Taking bio, chem, Japanese and algebra for spring,,

4. Hope I would get better results this time,,

5. new hope - new quote for me -

'don't bother with other people, other things that are not really important to you.
love yourself is even better than caring about other people who even don't think about you.
that is totally a waste.
you have experienced to live worse than you are now.
so, keep living to the fullest without depending on others.
yes, don't bother with them.

wassalam

"it hurts a lot"

they can be different today than yesterday

randomizing things whatever the heart to say
or waiting for someone to pay

makes me really got to delay
insisting them not to lay

since I'll be waiting at the bay

everyday

~iry~

i guess i feel alright

but it hurts
when i think
when i let it sink in
it's all over me

Dedicated special to you

I wish you GOOD LUCK in final exam..

GAMBAREYO

~iry~

Maybe I'm not lucky enough....

I really wanna something
but I couldn't
because of circumstances
that cannot be avoided
amazingly
I have dreamed it
for a long of time
but it keeps saying 'no'
what does it mean?

maybe I should stop dreaming
think about capability
that I wouldn't get it
anyway

and maybe I'm not lucky enough
because I'm still not found
the four leaf clover

and don't be sad
because I know
that 'something'
is not fit with me

~iry~

minna,,

Peace be upon with you,,

Just finished data exam,,which was kinda hard for multiple choice questions,,but it's okay,,
I'm very happy knowing other people happy story,,and
I'm sad when knowing something bad to others,,

At least I know of having life is wonderful isn't it?,,even I'm not the lucky guy among them,,
Hopefully I will get it someday,,

BTW, it hurts when people hate me. Sigh. I wish I could reverse the time and not doing what I have done now. But yet, I could not.

Erk,,lame post,,need to finish homework,,

Wassalam...

only you

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful,,

Ya Allah,,
only you I ask for help,,
only you I ask for hope,,
only you I ask for bless,,
and only you I ask for forgiveness,,

Ya Allah,,
please keep me strong,,
because lately I face lots of problems,,
please forgive for all my sins,,
because I have done tons of bad things before,,
please keep your enemy to stay away from me,,
because lately they keep me to become so lazy,,

Ya Allah,,
thank you for your bless,,
because I never get sick since last year,,
thank you for your help,,
because I manage to control myself from doing something bad,,
thank you for your 'anything'
because that 'anything' keeps me stay a Muslim

Ya Allah,,
please forgive my parents' sins
my friend's sins
and all people's sins
because I know you will always forgive our sins

Ya Allah,,
only you I depend on,,
please keep me safe from anything,,
keep me strong to face exams and homework,,
and keep me always to remember you,,

Amin,,,

open heart

Peace be upon with you....

Sigh, it has been a long time since my last post. Lots of things happened, busy with studies and etc. Me??,,Alhamdulillah. I'm still in good condition, never get any flu or fever yet, although now is 'sick' season here. Somehow I feel very so grateful to Allah for my health body. =D.

Guess what??,,for this post,,I will write anything that is stored in my mind since last post.

People are hard to be judged. Even me, it's hard to think whether someone action is correct or not. So far as I remember, I have live for almost 20 years without any strong dependent to others. Since I entered boarding school, I realized I would face all challenges and obstacles all alone. I was freakin' out actually, but whenever I had problems, I would try to solve it as best as I could.

Gee...its remind me when I was 5 years in the boarding school, my parents would go there twice a year. First, early of the school year on January to send all the stuff , and second during the end of school academic for that year on November to pick my stuff again. For 2 weeks break or whatever break it is in the middle of school year, I would go back home by bus. And went back to school by bus too. I realized that, from it, I learn to be independent. BTW, I had never go back to home for weekend holiday. I mean 3 days at home. It was just wasting my money.

I like to watch people's behavior and analyze it. Because from there, i would become maturer mentally. Including myself, I would think of what people around me have done every night. It doesn't matter what they did to me or others. 'secare langsung or x langsung'. good or bad. relieving or hurting. I try my best to be the best. Satisfying everybody needs even somehow it hurts me. I try to be a kind and other good behavior and attitude. But somehow, there is, at least, one day I would become so moody. But it doesn't take a long time.

In my head right now, everybody makes mistake including me. When people don't like me, hate me, or did something bad to me, I just accept it with open heart. If people like me, I would be so grateful. I just don't want people to hate me. That's all.

Emotionally status: WHATEVER!!...pasrah..and things to do next...try to solve it....I am me..me is me..LOL..

Actually, I have been tagged by gman,,(sorry for the late G...)...here we go

"The rules are simple. Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of the results, and post it as your answer. After that tag 6 people."

I am

screwed

I really wanna go to

london

My favorite things are

Hoodies!!Jeans!!

My favorite drinks are

Strawberry smoothie!!!Water

My favorite foods are

Roti canainasi lemak

koko crunch

My favorite colors areblack

White

Red

I live and born in

Petaling jaya

I attendedSemesta


INTEC


RIT

My favorite movies areTRANSFORMERS!!!


TWILIGHT!!!!

My hobbies areReading

Surfing

Sigh,,at last,,then,,people I wanna tag

~barry~

~pao~

~jiji~

~mior~

~miem??~

~ecah momo~

~RITansssssssssss~

BYE2
Wassalam

Updating,,collecting,,informing,,

Peace be upon with you.

Just wanna write anything that crosses my mind.

Firstly, I just wanna say Good Luck to Abg Hafiz yang SELAMAT SAMPAI at Malaysia. Eat Roti Canai + Nasi beryani + prosperity Burger. Waaaaaa...Nak jugak!!!!Take care and don't forget us here that stucked in RIT "=.="

And Kak Neesun too. GAMBATE!!!!

Erm, yeah, Happy Birthday to Pao and Ecah Momo for their birthdays. Sweet 22 to Pao and Sweet 21 to Ecah Momo. Sorry for the late wishes, but at least I write it in my blog. LOL.

Status for this week. Busy. With? Exams = BIO + CHEM. Btw, they gonna be on the same day. this Thursday. Aiya.

Financially, I need to save some money. Yeah, need to pay 300usd for RIT housing reservation. And I'm still working. Pushing the cart on snowy road. It's hard and kill my back!! But for money, I need too.

Busy with Malaysia Club Events. Dikir practice + Asia Aweness week(??????) + ........................(malaysian student festival that the name has not been decided yet). I feel like, it's gonna happen soon, and i'm not prepared anything yet. Sigh..

Kuala Terengganu milik PAS. For me, I could say, good, positive. Because it happened in good way, I mean no gaduh2 and whatsoever. And AJL23, Meet Uncle Hussein wins. I feel like, neutral, coz I don't even know what songs that have been played during that competiton. LOL.

Then, I feel like terribly angry with someone. I don't know why that kind of person always wanna find my faults. Mistakes. Sigh, It is really frustrated me. My word' -plz don't interrupt my business- plz-.

Hurm, please pray allowance will go into my bank account next 2 weeks. Haha.

Adios folks.

Wassalam.

p/s: Iwan dah xreti nak online kah??,,mengapakah ayah melarang kamu online???

From RIT to MarketPlace Mall To Israel

Peace be upon with you..

Life doesn't go well today as people are busy as always. Same with me here. I feel like everything is not right. Something wrong that I do not noticed since I woke up this morning. Guess what, things to be accomplished for this week.

1. Study for data and analysis 1st exam = Thursday
2. Biology lab notebook and lab report = Friday
3. Chemistry lab report = Next Monday
4. Study for biology test = Next Wednesday
5. Japanese exam = Next week
6. Dikir for Unification Day = Next4x week = takot2!!!

I'm like, duh??. Week 5!! I need to struggle to finish all the homework and start studying. Sigh. But that is not the topic that I wanna share. Hurm, let me start with this....

Yes, Palestine has been attacked AGAIN by Israel. And yes, I do concern with that sort of war I think. What can I do to help them? First of all, yes, pray to ALLAH SWT for saving the Palestine people from those no heart Israeli.

That is the only thing that I could do for now. Every night, I get IM from my friends wrote like, 'bace surah Al-Ikhlas sebanyak 7 kali. Sekaramg Masjid Al-Aqsa sedang dikepung oleh tentera Israel. Tolong sebarkan secepat mungkin.' And you know what i do? I recite the surah, but I just let those IM be. I didn't send it to other people. Am I wrong? I thought that other people would also get the same IM as me. Sigh, I confused with my action. Should I? Should'nt I? Any body wanna say something?

Then, the most bulletin that I read to save those people, BOYCOTT everything that is related to Israel. Colagate, KitKat, Coca-Cola and other stuff. And today, I get an email from my high school senior. When I read the email, it somewhat shocked me for a moment. Ok. Read this.

Syarikat : Nestle
Jenama : Kit Kat, Perrier, Libby, Nescafe, Maggie, Buitoni, Nestea, Freskies, Vittel, Pure Life, Nido, Smarties, Lion, Polo, After Eight, Coffee Mate, Nesquik, Aero, Quality Street, Felix (cat food), Crosse & Blackwell, Milkmaid, Carnation, Shreddies, Baci Baby Ruth, Butterfinger, Milkybar, Frutips
Fakta : Syarikat Swiss ini dimilikki 50.1% oleh syarikat Israel, Osem Investments. Pada tahun 2000 mengumumkan untuk melabur berjuta-juta dolar di Israel dalam R & D. Pada tahun Peter Brabeck-Letmathe bagi pihak Nestle menerima Anugerah Jubli daripada Perdana Menteri Netanyahu.

When I turn my head to my drawer, I realize that just bought a NesTea product from corner store. And I still have Maggie in my drawer. This another one.

Syarikat : IBM
Fakta : Mempunyai 1700 pekerja di Israel. Satu dari 3 syarikat yang disanjung semasa Jamuan Makan Malam Liga Persahabatan Amerika-Israel Untuk Demokrasi pada 25 Jun 2001 bersama Ariel Sharon.
Syarikat : Intel
Produk : Perkakasan komputer
Fakta : Intel adalah penyokong kuat Israel. Pusat pembangunan pertama di luar Amerika didirikan di Haifa pada 1974.

I'm using AMD. But, INTEL kot!!!!! And last one.

Syarikat : Delta Galil Industries Ltd.
Produk : Pasaraya, Pakaian dan Kasut
Jenama : JC Penney , Carrefour Nike, Reebok, Converse, Calvin Klein, Gap, Boss, Ralph Lauren, Banana Republic, Bauer, Wrangler, Dim, Old Navy Dockers, Celio, J. Crew , Caterpillar, Lou Riders, Pryca
Fakta : Syarikat kain terbesar Israel. Pengasasnya Dov Lautman adalah kenalan rapat Presiden Israel ketika itu Ehud Barak.

Sigh, when I go to MarketPlace Mall, I would use JC PENNY fitting room to solat!!..JC PENNY. And I will go to BANANA REPUBLIC and GAP to watch for new items. Sigh. I have I GAP jeans. Plus 2 OLD NAVY woolenjacket. Aiya.

So, what I am wondering is, why everything that I buy, I like to use, has to be somewhat related with Israel. I'm just like, 'WHAT??'

All in all. I will try not buy thing from that place again. TRY. That is good enough than never. So, think about it. I sure you will wonder same with me.

Wassalam

p/s: I still have American Eagle and PacSun to buy my outfits. YEA2!!!

things to accomplish this week,,

Peace be upon with you,

Goals for this week:
1. study data and analysis ( enjoy =] )
2. finish lab report and notebook for bio
3. complete chem lab report and pre-lab,,
4. study nihon!!
5. not forget, bio quiz

Sigh, lots of work. Determination + Desire = Dang!!!!

Wassalam.

penat,,sgt penat,,

Assalamualaikum.

Entry emo. Sigh, I really don't have any idea why suddenly I'm being emo again. It's all about lab reports BIO and CHEM. Sigh, belom ambik lg lab tissue, orgo and wutsoever next year. Da pening kepale otak. Adoi!!..Let's imagine, I just spend more than 5 hours doing the calculation for my chem lab. It's so frustrated. Aiya, Lab bio plak, sigh, bacteria culture, but I don't think I know the objective of what I'm doing until now. It's like, "WHAT THE HECK AM I DOING??".

Ok, got headache already. Lupe plak, blog nie xde sape nak bace, bcoz bdk2 bz right now with hal2 mereka sendiri. So, bye.

Wassalam.

p/s: jgn jd mcm saye

Try it!!!

Peace be upon with you.

Hey guys! Check this out. It's something that I get from my friend!!

If you watch the above images from your seat in front of the computer, Mr.Angry is on the left, and Mrs.Calm is on the right.

Get up from your seat, and move back about eight feet!!

They switch places!!
This proves that things aren't always what they look like!!

So, How is it? Cool huh?

So,bye...homework to do!!!

Wassalam.

Holiday vs.Study

Peace be upon with you..

Tomorrow, me as a student life will resume, and I'm now trying to open books, finish homework, switch my body into study mood and etc. related with educational stuff. Let me tell you some facts when I am in study mood:

1. Everyday, I will sleep at 12 a.m, and wake up at 7 a.m.
2. After finishing with the last class of the day, LIBRARY, HERE I COME!!!
3. At library, I will try to finish my homework and study (facebooking + friendstering + youtubing are compulsary to do if I feel like,,,DUH???)
4. Plus, I will borrow laptop from circulation desk, and renew it at 9 p.m.
5. I go back to dorm at 11 p.m, kemas2 my stuff for tomorrow, and go to sleep.
6. Lunch at SAU, dinner at RITZ SPORT - cheese pizza is the most common meal I order!!!,,and not to forget, cheesey wedges + fries...
7. Weekend, working from 5 to 10 a.m, then sleep for a while, and dinner at commons. (Believe me, I have not gone to gracies since this winter quarter started,,that was amazing thou)

Facts when I'm in holiday mood:

1. Depends, but my biological clock will change = SLEEP MORE!!,,EAT MORE!!,,LAZY!!
2.I will try to do something benificial,,like reading books,,(just like i'm reading Twilight Saga during Fall Break)
3. If I'm on vacation, I will become more energetic,,yeeeehaaaah!!!,,FLORIDA!!!!!!!!
4. No Idea....end

Btw, my status for now,

1. I'm broke,,need to save money,,
2. Cuaks with biology subject,,and chemistry too!!!
3. REALLY HATE SNOW!!! (sorry Afnan, I couldn't help myself)
4. Budgeting my financial spend,,
5. I'm 20 years old this year!!!,,WHAT?????

Ok, need to continue study japanese. Chiao..

Wassalam.

,,my life is resumed,,

Peace be upon with you.

First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR to all of you. Sigh...I wonder why time travels so fast. It's 2009 already. And I'm getting older and older. Sigh....I still have a long way to go. Studying, working, and others. Lots of things need to think of, and I don't want to. When it comes with perfect time, then I will think about it. I don't like to mess up my head that already full with problems. Hurm..

Talking about future things, people usually have new aims, new objectives, new whatever for every New Year, but I'm not. And I never had before. Aimless. It's not like I don't have any goal in my life, it's just not for anual routine that needs to be refreshed every year. Plus, I don't think about my future thoughly. What job I wanna be, where am I gonna stay and all crappy questions that are not necessary to think about now. And I just have few goals right now.

1. Graduate
2. (No idea)

Yeah, what I want now is graduate from RIT. I don't know what I gonna do after that because I still have 3 and half years to go. But, for sure, I don't think I would continue taking MS immediately after that. I need to work first, make sure I have strong financial report, help my family, and other stuffs. I feel that learning is somewhat sressful. I really need a break after learning continuously for 12 years since I was 7. Sigh...I have to do something else instead of studying.

BTW, I just came back from Florida. I don't wanna talk about it because you could find story tellers other than me. What can I say about my vacation....AWESOME....

It's 12 a.m. Sigh, I really hate snow right now. I wish I could be in Florida again

Wassalam.

wished things

Peace be upon with you.

~the first 7 wishes that comes to my mind~

~I wish I would be happy forever~

~I wish I would always be rich..LOL~

~I wish I'm working right now (tired of studying already)~

~I wish I have never done my evil things before~

~I wish I would be just like other normal people...yaiks~

~I wish I would have good memories~

~I wish all my 6 wishes come true immediately~

Wassalam.