Hope

me 5 years ago, i wanna be like him again

that person is afraid of my giant hand

=)

bonds

I hate this feeling (again)

I wish something impossible

and dumb me, still hoping for it to come true

it would be really nice

but it is worth waiting?

I'm clueless

SIGH

I hope this goes away quickly...

do me a favor

just don't hate me

you

I know you knew it...
but you just don't wanna admit it..

me

pity?

you

won't

ever....

its 1202 am....

Assalamualaikum...

Time: 1202 am
Day: Oct 10th

Right now, I'm studying biochemistry conformation & dynamics. It's MM equations and freaking difficult to understand. Sigh, swear to myself not to take ONLINE class ever again because I tend to procrastinate all the assignments, readings and what so ever.

Let's see, since I have not updated my blog since June, and there is a lot of things going on right now, maybe I would like to story you guys some of it and what other things that have gone through my mind.

Okay, some updates. I'm almost done with my Japanese minor! Hooray for me y'all! It has been like 6 tough quarters for me to confront this language class. I notice one of my weaknesses is learning foreign language. I admit that my English is not even good though compared with other Malaysians over here. It feels like I'm the worst. But yeah, it's my weakness and I don't want to talk about it in detail.

Oh yeah the Japanese minor. Since I'm almost done with it this quarter, I'm thinking to take another minor which is accounting. I love maths a lot since high school. And I love calculating money and money and money. Haha. There is one time I thought I wanted to be an accountant rather than a biotechnologist but it was too late =( . But hell yeah, I'm determined to do that accounting minor since I have lots of time left before graduate. So pray for me!!!!

Hurm, what else? Oh yeah, RAYA. To make it simple, I enjoyed celebrating RAYA over here. Full stop. 3 years already not celebrating RAYA with family, now feels like nothing. Already get used to be far away from them. They also understand how I feel. So, no homesick no "malaysia job"sick etc. It's not like I TOTALLY forget about them, feeling the way it's supposed to be. It's just the matter of time and distance, I believe, I believe I'm a matured strong person and I believe everything would end sooner. 2 years left is like 2 blinks of eyes. 1 year for each. =D

So what's up with my personal life? Huhu. Nothing much happened. Or I would rather say NOTHING happened. I'm just the same as the old me. No diet, no crush, no etc. My friends told me that I'm getting skinnier? Oh yeah I'm freaking skinny! SKINNIER than a person having the aneroxia nerbosa. HAHA. I think misspelled that.

But things get more difficult through out the years. Since I'm a junior, I have to take lots of elective classes, and its not that easy though. Plus having two positions in Malaysian club and UMNO has already made me crazy sometimes. You know, between studies, work, responsibility in clubs, I have to think smart, work hard on all of it. Sigh, that's all I can express to you guys right now. Maybe these obstacles... never mind. Forget it. My bad.

So, future plans? Vacation? Maybe. Already have a list of places to visit and enjoy. But I have to think twice, my personal financial account is not really that stable though. I have to be more saving since I have to pay for the minivan, flight ticket going back to Malaysia next year, buying important personal stuff etc. Since I'm a little 'boros' when things come to shopping, I will try not to do shopping that frequent.

It's October , hey today is 10:10:10 !!! =)

I have to go sleep la. Need to wake up at 430am to go work. =)

Before I end this post, let's read this,

Nabi s.a.w bersabda: "Malaikat sentiasa berdoa untuk seseorang kamu selama ia berada di tempat yang ia sembahyang padanya, selagi ia tidak berhadas, iaitu mereka memohon dengan berkata: "Ya Tuhan kami! Ampunilah dosanya, ya Tuhan kami! Berilah rahmat kepadanya."

Abu Huraiarah r.a

Till me meet next time!

Wassalam . PEACE! =)

It's almost 2.....in the morning

and yes, still couldn't sleep. It's time to get some updates from me.

Going back to Malaysia is awesome. I had chance to visit kampung and met nenek and embah. We had kenduri arwah and made nasi ambang for the people who came to the house. It's not that big event, just a simple one, annually we would have it. Besides all my aunts were there too. It's like a big family gathering since Hari Raya plus I'm the only grandson did not celebrate it for two years, plus this year too. Sigh, I wish I could skip a week of classes for Raya, but I don't want too.

What I want to accomplish? Getting a driving license? Nope, because me and my family have a little financial crisis. My brother got into college and I understand that my family would spent more money foe his expenses. So I postponed it for next year. Yeah feels very noobs right now because I'm almost 21 and still don't know how to drive. I wish I could learn at least for one time but I don't have a chance. Because first my parents are busy working 8 to 12 hours everyday. Second we don't have a car but a big 13 years old mazda van. And third I have to take care of my lil sis and brother. Oh well I think I just have to rely to my roommates commuting to somewhere I want. BTW riding a scooter is the first thing I did when I arrived home. LOL.

Since we have the financial crisis, I got a job as a waiter at my old working place. At least I don't have to ask money from my dad everyday. LOL. Even though the pay is not that high, I would keep it in the bank for future. Besides it would be such a waste staying home doing nothing. I could die because of the boredom.

Learn cooking. Oh well I'm bad at that stuff. Full stop. Haha. Vacation? Don't feel going to. My passion now just working.

What I've been thinking recently is what car should I buy after I graduate and get a job? In my head...lots...haha but I either a persona or a vios. It's just a rough idea what car is the best for a new fresh working man. Maybe there are lots of cars better than those two. We will see. Sigh, I forget I still don't know how to drive.

FIFA. I don't watch the matches. I just wanna know the results. I'm rooting for Brazil now. GO BRAZIL!! YOU CAN DO IT!!

For those who will get a vacation trip, have a safe journey

For those who still studying for classes, good luck

For those who confers problems, please don't be sad and be strong. I pray for you guys.

I wish I would make this post longer. I have to sleep because tomorrow I have to 'bukak kedai' and 'susun meja' and 'kemas chiller' at 930.

sayounara minna-san