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it's getting near

10 days and counting - new chapter of life will begin soon

~alone~

I have been alone all along

please just don't leave me yet

~heaven~

when I stare in your eyes
it couldn't be better
I don't want you to go
oh no

I believe
it's the love teardrops

a lot

I wish I knew how to stop being sad all of the time.

say okay

Life.Live.Love

Hope

Life must go on. and Live it to the fullest, believe that Love will come someday....
let's Hope for the best

~miss~

~i miss you always~

~SeMuSiM~

everything has happened

my love is already gone

and now I'm all alone

without you at my side

it's hard to forget the sweet memories

it has been a while

I go through it

without you

but your sweet face

will remain in my heart

I never imagine

you did that to me

I tried to forget

everything about you

it's hard to forget about you

-a guy with hidden tears-

=.=!

you are not like this
as I know you before
I wonder why
should I ask?

torn

I was torn...

I wish to be happy like yesterday
So I don't have to be alone again

I wish to be that strong
So I don't have to be pretending

I wish to be an angel
So I could love you forever

I was torn...

is there a chance for me, still?

rain

can you see me over there?
sitting on the grass of despair,
under the rain of tears...

Spring 2010/2011 - what a quarter...

Peace be with you.

Okay, I realized that I posted a lot of crap unnecessary things lately because of my unstable feelings, but yeah I just wanted to write it on my blog to release my tension. Since I have not updated about my 'real' self since past spring quarter (I think), I decided to dedicate this post to write about it.

So first, my academic. I took Genetic Engineering (GE), Cancer Biology and Management Accounting for this quarter, plus one credit for TA in Molecular lab, with the total of 13 credit hours. That was the least credit hours I took in RIT. The last one I remember was 15 credit hours during my first quarter here during the Fall2008. But don't think that lesser the credits I take, more free time I have. WRONG! All classes were difficult to me, especially GE.


That was the most intense class+lab that I ever took. Lets imagine, 8 hours of labs + 2 hours of lecture + 10++ hours lab work = CRAZY! I admit that being in that class is very tough for me. Learn about plasmid, virus, enzymes etc, they are interesting to learn, but its a lot! I barely survived in that class since I did not get good grades for first lab report, exams and an assignment. But eventually, I tried my best to challenge myself to beat GE. It was frustrated though that I REALLY needed to get good grades in second and so forth lab reports + exams. Alhamdulillah, Dr. Rothman, who teaches the class, gives me a very satisfying grade to me. YEAY =)


Move on to Cancer Biology class. Yeah, as I expected, Dr. Wright taught about uncontrollable proliferation of cells that caused the tumor development. I learned about tumor suppressor genes, proto-oncogenes, telomere shortening and several other fascinating knowledge that I valued. Eventhough cancer is not my interest subject to know, but eventually, when I learned about the mechanism of how cancer developed etc, it made my understanding about molecular mechanism more clear than ever. =)

Okay, last one, management accounting. I decided to take this class because of my passion in math+money =). Idk, but yeah. I'm thinking to do another minor which is the accounting. People told me that there is no relationship between biotech and accounting. =.= I agree. But it is just me though. I love calculating things because I (think) I am good in math (not advanced) =P Btw, this class was difficult too. I have to memorize all the formula, got to know how to do the bank statement, debit, credit, all bank stuff. Owh, there is one time that I want to be an accountant =.= but I did not take any accounting class during my high school. @.@.

Okay, that's it. Done with JUNIOR year. Next.. Summer.... =)

only you

its only you that I care
and only you that I love
believe me
<3

regret

i should have known this problem will come soon
-a guy with hidden tears-

serik

aku bkn jenis yg senang give up
aku try my best to get something I want

but only this matter, ONLY this matter
Ya Allah, tolong lah aku get over bende nie cpt
sobs sobs
=(

only you

do you feel guilty?
do you ever think about how I feel?
do you remember the promises you made?

I don't, because you never realized.

sigh, you such a jerk.

It's all end here...

I'm done with everything,
I'm done doing right thing,
I'm done with all work,
So, should I say goodbye?

give up

I'm giving you up without notice
and its gonna hurt a lot

'fortune cookies'

=)

blank,,

aku blank, sbb da x taw nak buat ape dah. kalau mcm nie, lame2 blh jd gile.

what is the best options I have then? I tried every of them, and eventually, I have no idea what other things to do.

sigh, nak nangis blh x

=(

secrets

again happy!!!

happy again!!!

happy!!!

Intense

Assalamualaikum.

Tomorrow is the third spring quarter for me. And it is going to be the most intense one because I will take genetic engineering, cancer biology and management accounting. Plus I will be TAing, working, and dancing for Malaysian Night. Sigh, I know it's a lot of work but this is the last, SAIGO!!! No more after this.

To the readers, atarashii no gakki, ganbattene!!

Wassalam.

Alhamdulillah

Despite of lots of problems I face during winter quarter, I feel so grateful to Allah, for giving me strength, and I have succeeded with all of my work and helps from my friends

=)

Thank you Allah...

Wake up

I realized, that I don't have to pretend to be someone of who I want to be.
Just be myself, and that way will make my happy..

Don't take something too serious,
because it has nothing to do with my life..

regret

wish didn't do that in first place

Thought of the day....

I feel tired...
Why I have to do the first move?

Ceritera Hati

Assalamualaikum,,

p/s: entry ini hanyalah sekadar mainan perasaan kehidupan seharian penulis untuk menulis sesuatu, so maybe agak boring, LOL.

Ceritera Hati....Owh sudah lama tidak menulis tentang hati. Apa cerita hati sekarang? Sihat? Macam mana dengan luka tempoh hari? Sudah sembuh? Ada parut kelihatan? Apa-apa pun, semua persoalan itu hanyalah sekadar bingkisan memori lama yang masih tersimpan dalam hati. Apa yang penting, hati ini sudah lebih matang dengan usia, lebih tahu untuk berhadap dengan sesuatu, lebih bijak menilai keadaan. Tidak kisah jika kadang-kala hati itu terluka, kerana parut itu sendiri bagaikan taraan usia hati yang banyak melalui asam garam kehidupan.

Ceritera Hati....Kadang-kadang hati ini terkilan dengan sesuatu. Terasa sunyi seketika. Maklumlah, lumrah penulis yang sudah banyak tugasan yang diberi, hati bertukar emosi. Terimbau kenangan silam, betapa diri penulis terlalu daif akan kehidupan. Jika diikutkan, mahu sahaja hati ini suruh berhenti. Tetapi apakan daya, bak kata pujangga, "Hidup perlu diteruskan." Lalu, diutuhkan hati untuk terus berfungsi, meniti liku-liku hidup, yang durinya masih banyak lagi.

Ceritera Hati....Hati mengaku, ia mengkehendakkan sesuatu, namun tidak ketemu sehingga kini. Perkara itu jelas dan nyata. Hanya perlu mencari yang sesuai, ikhlas dalam bicara. Namun, tidaklah semua yang dikehendaki akan tercapai begitu senang sekali. Perlulah ada usaha untuk mencari. Tetapi pelik, sudah mencari tapi masih tidak ketemu.

Ceritera Hati....Biasalah, hati mengaku. Kadang-kala terlalu cepat terasa. Kalau kehendakkan sesuatu, dan tidak pula tercapai hasrat itu, hati pasti terasa pilu. Mahu memberontak seperti budak kecil. Tapi itu tidak lama, hanya mainan perasaan. Redha dengan apa yang terjadi, kerana hati bukan tuan, penentu segala jadian.

Ceritera Hati....Bak kata orang, kata itu lebih tajam dari mata pedang. Itu sememangnya benar, untuk hati ini. Kerana hati ini sangat menjaga katanya. Dan tidak pula mahu orang lain mengata. Kerana pabila kata itu membawa harapan, terus hati ini percaya akan harapan itu. Dan pabila harapan itu hanya sekadar kosong tanpa isi, sudah tentu hati ini terasa sangat sedih. Kerana harapan adalah segala-galanya bagi hati.

Ceritera Hati....kalau diikutkan. Sudah lama hati ini perlu melara. Kerana tidak terkira banyaknya dugaan yang dilalui. Semuanya duri. Sangat pahit untuk dirasai. Seperti mahu sahaja lari. Dari dunia ini. Pernah terfikir sendiri, adakah hati ini akan diingati? sekiranya ia sudah tiada lagi?

Ceritera Hati....hanya mampu menghela nafas panjang. Bila difikir kembali. Semua itu ujian dari yang Esa. Untuk menguji ketahanan hati. Dalam insan lemah ini. Hati selalu memujuk, dunia hanya sementara, akhirat itu yang selama-lamanya. Itu menjadi penenang, tatkala hati seorang dibuai angin. Hati perlu kuat, mengumpul pahala yang Kuasa, menuntut ilmu yang Bijaksana, mengamal segala dari yang Maha.

Ceritera Hati....

is there tomorrow for me?

we have met today.....
but can we meet again tomorrow?
I just want to see your smile...

=)

coverage

mssg da hantar
tp xde respon

sebab kemungkinan

• coverage x kuat
• mssg x clear
• signal xde
• recipient turn off
• dpt, tp buat2 x dpt

Should I keep trying?

capabilities

realize what you capable of
don't put yourself in danger
just stop from being hypocrite
sigh, what a day....

ほんとう、いまぼくはだれかといっしょにはなしてるよ。
かなしいね。ひとりで、もんだいをいじする。

Kepade blog ini aku luahkan perasaan...

since not everyone will read my blog, I will write anything. personal. education. family. thoughts. etc.

hopeless

i feel so hopeless right now,
expecting matters i couldn't even get,
long sigh for me,
hate this feeling,
it hurts so bad,
again, long sigh for me,,
sigh................

なかま

日：水
持：午前８．２７

きょうはすいようびです。そとで、ゆきがふって、たぶんとてもさむいです。どやってじゅぎょうにいきますか？ぼくはさむいのことだいきらいです。じゅぎょうをさぼりたいとおもいます。でも、きょうはかがくのラブがあるし、しけんがあるし、だいがくにいかなくちゃいけませんね。いま、もうたくさんしごとがあるので、ねむいです。

ひさしぶりですね。みんな、あけましておめでとうございます。さくねんのじゅうがつからいままでたくさんことをしました。ぼくはもうにじゅうにさい、おとなです。たくさんのことをはなしたいんです。みんなはききたいですか？

こんがっき、じゅぎょうをよっつとります。ぼくはもうにほんごのじゅぎょうをおわります。とてもたのしいです。それから、たくさんマレーシアのがくせいはにほんごのじゅぎょうをいまはいっています。ぼくはいそがしすぎます。マレーシアのクラブとUMNOでぼくはたくさんしごとをします。それに、らいがっき、GEのじゅぎょうをたぶんはいるつもりです。

ふゆのたびはとてみたのしかったです。僕はたくさんと殺したり、仲間をつくったり、ぼくはとてもうれしかったですね。ぼくはNashvilleとAtlantaとNewOrleansとMissouriとColumbusとPittsburghにいきました。そこでたくさんしゃしんをたりました。Facebookでしゃしんをみられますよ。

いまぼくわまだおなじひとだろう。へんこしません。まだこひびちがありません。まだはやいですね。ぼくはもう大人から、しごとをさがすはもっといいとおもいます。だから、いいせいせきをもちたいです。

そこまでいいです。たくさん宿題あるから、ちょっといそがしいです。じゃあ、またねみんあ。

おげんきよ！！

Options

Choose 2 between these 5 options.

1. Working
2. TAing
3. Taking Chem Sep Lab
4. Doing research
5. NOTHING

KANPAI!!