~ SeArChInG fOr lOvE ~

pindah

2011-10-17T22:04:00.001-04:00

saye pindah blog dibawah

http://shahrizal89.blogspot.com/

rajin2 la tgk, pastu komen, kite boring la =P

nak tanye

2011-10-14T04:02:00.001-04:00

salam, sape2 yg follow blog ni, atau bace post sini, blh x tulis name kat bwh dkt comment site

tq :)

it's getting near

2011-10-09T22:38:00.000-04:00

10 days and counting - new chapter of life will begin soon

~alone~

2011-06-16T07:11:00.001-04:00

I have been alone all along

please just don't leave me yet

~heaven~

2011-06-13T22:37:00.003-04:00

when I stare in your eyes
it couldn't be better
I don't want you to go
oh no

I believe
it's the love teardrops

a lot

2011-06-12T10:27:00.001-04:00

I wish I knew how to stop being sad all of the time.

say okay

2011-06-08T21:39:00.003-04:00

Life.Live.Love

Hope

Life must go on. and Live it to the fullest, believe that Love will come someday....
let's Hope for the best

~miss~

2011-06-07T16:27:00.001-04:00

~i miss you always~

~SeMuSiM~

2011-06-05T20:33:00.004-04:00

everything has happened

my love is already gone

and now I'm all alone

without you at my side

it's hard to forget the sweet memories

it has been a while

I go through it

without you

but your sweet face

will remain in my heart

I never imagine

you did that to me

I tried to forget

everything about you

it's hard to forget about you

-a guy with hidden tears-

=.=!

2011-06-01T09:48:00.002-04:00

you are not like this
as I know you before
I wonder why
should I ask?

torn

2011-05-31T15:10:00.002-04:00

I was torn...

I wish to be happy like yesterday
So I don't have to be alone again

I wish to be that strong
So I don't have to be pretending

I wish to be an angel
So I could love you forever

I was torn...

is there a chance for me, still?

rain

2011-05-27T11:41:00.001-04:00

can you see me over there?
sitting on the grass of despair,
under the rain of tears...

Spring 2010/2011 - what a quarter...

2011-05-25T20:01:00.009-04:00

Peace be with you.

Okay, I realized that I posted a lot of crap unnecessary things lately because of my unstable feelings, but yeah I just wanted to write it on my blog to release my tension. Since I have not updated about my 'real' self since past spring quarter (I think), I decided to dedicate this post to write about it.

So first, my academic. I took Genetic Engineering (GE), Cancer Biology and Management Accounting for this quarter, plus one credit for TA in Molecular lab, with the total of 13 credit hours. That was the least credit hours I took in RIT. The last one I remember was 15 credit hours during my first quarter here during the Fall2008. But don't think that lesser the credits I take, more free time I have. WRONG! All classes were difficult to me, especially GE.

That was the most intense class+lab that I ever took. Lets imagine, 8 hours of labs + 2 hours of lecture + 10++ hours lab work = CRAZY! I admit that being in that class is very tough for me. Learn about plasmid, virus, enzymes etc, they are interesting to learn, but its a lot! I barely survived in that class since I did not get good grades for first lab report, exams and an assignment. But eventually, I tried my best to challenge myself to beat GE. It was frustrated though that I REALLY needed to get good grades in second and so forth lab reports + exams. Alhamdulillah, Dr. Rothman, who teaches the class, gives me a very satisfying grade to me. YEAY =)

Move on to Cancer Biology class. Yeah, as I expected, Dr. Wright taught about uncontrollable proliferation of cells that caused the tumor development. I learned about tumor suppressor genes, proto-oncogenes, telomere shortening and several other fascinating knowledge that I valued. Eventhough cancer is not my interest subject to know, but eventually, when I learned about the mechanism of how cancer developed etc, it made my understanding about molecular mechanism more clear than ever. =)

Okay, last one, management accounting. I decided to take this class because of my passion in math+money =). Idk, but yeah. I'm thinking to do another minor which is the accounting. People told me that there is no relationship between biotech and accounting. =.= I agree. But it is just me though. I love calculating things because I (think) I am good in math (not advanced) =P Btw, this class was difficult too. I have to memorize all the formula, got to know how to do the bank statement, debit, credit, all bank stuff. Owh, there is one time that I want to be an accountant =.= but I did not take any accounting class during my high school. @.@.

Okay, that's it. Done with JUNIOR year. Next.. Summer.... =)

only you

2011-05-25T01:52:00.003-04:00

its only you that I care
and only you that I love
believe me
<3

regret

2011-05-19T09:46:00.000-04:00

i should have known this problem will come soon
-a guy with hidden tears-

serik

2011-04-30T10:26:00.002-04:00

aku bkn jenis yg senang give up
aku try my best to get something I want

but only this matter, ONLY this matter
Ya Allah, tolong lah aku get over bende nie cpt
sobs sobs
=(

only you

2011-04-23T14:40:00.002-04:00

do you feel guilty?
do you ever think about how I feel?
do you remember the promises you made?

I don't, because you never realized.

sigh, you such a jerk.

It's all end here...

2011-04-17T15:20:00.002-04:00

I'm done with everything,
I'm done doing right thing,
I'm done with all work,
So, should I say goodbye?

give up

2011-04-03T22:06:00.001-04:00

I'm giving you up without notice
and its gonna hurt a lot

'fortune cookies'

2011-03-29T23:53:00.001-04:00

blank,,

2011-03-21T11:11:00.002-04:00

aku blank, sbb da x taw nak buat ape dah. kalau mcm nie, lame2 blh jd gile.

what is the best options I have then? I tried every of them, and eventually, I have no idea what other things to do.

sigh, nak nangis blh x

=(

secrets

2011-03-18T21:56:00.001-04:00

again happy!!!

2011-03-11T10:59:00.003-05:00

happy again!!!

2011-03-08T21:19:00.002-05:00

happy!!!

2011-03-08T11:59:00.001-05:00

Intense

2011-03-06T09:45:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum.

Tomorrow is the third spring quarter for me. And it is going to be the most intense one because I will take genetic engineering, cancer biology and management accounting. Plus I will be TAing, working, and dancing for Malaysian Night. Sigh, I know it's a lot of work but this is the last, SAIGO!!! No more after this.

To the readers, atarashii no gakki, ganbattene!!

Wassalam.

Alhamdulillah

2011-02-27T17:32:00.002-05:00

Despite of lots of problems I face during winter quarter, I feel so grateful to Allah, for giving me strength, and I have succeeded with all of my work and helps from my friends

=)

Thank you Allah...

Wake up

2011-02-21T07:22:00.002-05:00

I realized, that I don't have to pretend to be someone of who I want to be.
Just be myself, and that way will make my happy..

Don't take something too serious,
because it has nothing to do with my life..

regret

2011-02-20T20:01:00.001-05:00

wish didn't do that in first place

Thought of the day....

2011-02-20T00:32:00.002-05:00

I feel tired...
Why I have to do the first move?

Ceritera Hati

2011-02-14T21:38:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum,,

p/s: entry ini hanyalah sekadar mainan perasaan kehidupan seharian penulis untuk menulis sesuatu, so maybe agak boring, LOL.

Ceritera Hati....Owh sudah lama tidak menulis tentang hati. Apa cerita hati sekarang? Sihat? Macam mana dengan luka tempoh hari? Sudah sembuh? Ada parut kelihatan? Apa-apa pun, semua persoalan itu hanyalah sekadar bingkisan memori lama yang masih tersimpan dalam hati. Apa yang penting, hati ini sudah lebih matang dengan usia, lebih tahu untuk berhadap dengan sesuatu, lebih bijak menilai keadaan. Tidak kisah jika kadang-kala hati itu terluka, kerana parut itu sendiri bagaikan taraan usia hati yang banyak melalui asam garam kehidupan.

Ceritera Hati....Kadang-kadang hati ini terkilan dengan sesuatu. Terasa sunyi seketika. Maklumlah, lumrah penulis yang sudah banyak tugasan yang diberi, hati bertukar emosi. Terimbau kenangan silam, betapa diri penulis terlalu daif akan kehidupan. Jika diikutkan, mahu sahaja hati ini suruh berhenti. Tetapi apakan daya, bak kata pujangga, "Hidup perlu diteruskan." Lalu, diutuhkan hati untuk terus berfungsi, meniti liku-liku hidup, yang durinya masih banyak lagi.

Ceritera Hati....Hati mengaku, ia mengkehendakkan sesuatu, namun tidak ketemu sehingga kini. Perkara itu jelas dan nyata. Hanya perlu mencari yang sesuai, ikhlas dalam bicara. Namun, tidaklah semua yang dikehendaki akan tercapai begitu senang sekali. Perlulah ada usaha untuk mencari. Tetapi pelik, sudah mencari tapi masih tidak ketemu.

Ceritera Hati....Biasalah, hati mengaku. Kadang-kala terlalu cepat terasa. Kalau kehendakkan sesuatu, dan tidak pula tercapai hasrat itu, hati pasti terasa pilu. Mahu memberontak seperti budak kecil. Tapi itu tidak lama, hanya mainan perasaan. Redha dengan apa yang terjadi, kerana hati bukan tuan, penentu segala jadian.

Ceritera Hati....Bak kata orang, kata itu lebih tajam dari mata pedang. Itu sememangnya benar, untuk hati ini. Kerana hati ini sangat menjaga katanya. Dan tidak pula mahu orang lain mengata. Kerana pabila kata itu membawa harapan, terus hati ini percaya akan harapan itu. Dan pabila harapan itu hanya sekadar kosong tanpa isi, sudah tentu hati ini terasa sangat sedih. Kerana harapan adalah segala-galanya bagi hati.

Ceritera Hati....kalau diikutkan. Sudah lama hati ini perlu melara. Kerana tidak terkira banyaknya dugaan yang dilalui. Semuanya duri. Sangat pahit untuk dirasai. Seperti mahu sahaja lari. Dari dunia ini. Pernah terfikir sendiri, adakah hati ini akan diingati? sekiranya ia sudah tiada lagi?

Ceritera Hati....hanya mampu menghela nafas panjang. Bila difikir kembali. Semua itu ujian dari yang Esa. Untuk menguji ketahanan hati. Dalam insan lemah ini. Hati selalu memujuk, dunia hanya sementara, akhirat itu yang selama-lamanya. Itu menjadi penenang, tatkala hati seorang dibuai angin. Hati perlu kuat, mengumpul pahala yang Kuasa, menuntut ilmu yang Bijaksana, mengamal segala dari yang Maha.

Ceritera Hati....

is there tomorrow for me?

2011-02-11T14:36:00.002-05:00

we have met today.....
but can we meet again tomorrow?
I just want to see your smile...

=)

coverage

2011-02-09T20:24:00.002-05:00

mssg da hantar
tp xde respon

sebab kemungkinan

coverage x kuat
mssg x clear
signal xde
recipient turn off
dpt, tp buat2 x dpt

Should I keep trying?

capabilities

2011-02-08T23:21:00.003-05:00

realize what you capable of
don't put yourself in danger
just stop from being hypocrite
sigh, what a day....

ほんとう、いまぼくはだれかといっしょにはなしてるよ。
かなしいね。ひとりで、もんだいをいじする。

Kepade blog ini aku luahkan perasaan...

2011-02-06T21:23:00.002-05:00

since not everyone will read my blog, I will write anything. personal. education. family. thoughts. etc.

hopeless

2011-01-17T23:39:00.002-05:00

i feel so hopeless right now,
expecting matters i couldn't even get,
long sigh for me,
hate this feeling,
it hurts so bad,
again, long sigh for me,,
sigh................

なかま

2011-01-12T08:06:00.005-05:00

日：水
持：午前８．２７

きょうはすいようびです。そとで、ゆきがふって、たぶんとてもさむいです。どやってじゅぎょうにいきますか？ぼくはさむいのことだいきらいです。じゅぎょうをさぼりたいとおもいます。でも、きょうはかがくのラブがあるし、しけんがあるし、だいがくにいかなくちゃいけませんね。いま、もうたくさんしごとがあるので、ねむいです。

ひさしぶりですね。みんな、あけましておめでとうございます。さくねんのじゅうがつからいままでたくさんことをしました。ぼくはもうにじゅうにさい、おとなです。たくさんのことをはなしたいんです。みんなはききたいですか？

こんがっき、じゅぎょうをよっつとります。ぼくはもうにほんごのじゅぎょうをおわります。とてもたのしいです。それから、たくさんマレーシアのがくせいはにほんごのじゅぎょうをいまはいっています。ぼくはいそがしすぎます。マレーシアのクラブとUMNOでぼくはたくさんしごとをします。それに、らいがっき、GEのじゅぎょうをたぶんはいるつもりです。

ふゆのたびはとてみたのしかったです。僕はたくさんと殺したり、仲間をつくったり、ぼくはとてもうれしかったですね。ぼくはNashvilleとAtlantaとNewOrleansとMissouriとColumbusとPittsburghにいきました。そこでたくさんしゃしんをたりました。Facebookでしゃしんをみられますよ。

いまぼくわまだおなじひとだろう。へんこしません。まだこひびちがありません。まだはやいですね。ぼくはもう大人から、しごとをさがすはもっといいとおもいます。だから、いいせいせきをもちたいです。

そこまでいいです。たくさん宿題あるから、ちょっといそがしいです。じゃあ、またねみんあ。

おげんきよ！！

Options

2011-01-11T15:06:00.002-05:00

Choose 2 between these 5 options.

1. Working
2. TAing
3. Taking Chem Sep Lab
4. Doing research
5. NOTHING

KANPAI!!

nafsu dan ruh merebut jasad

2010-12-27T16:46:00.002-05:00

aku rase aku org yg plg suke berpura2

sbb sku byk ksh duka

wahai ruh, tawanlah jasadku ini

agar aku jumpa itu kebenaran YA ALLAH

I wish you wouldn't exist,

2010-12-08T18:07:00.002-05:00

so I don't have to screw up my head worrying about you everyday...

I like being along, but I hate being lonely

2010-11-16T01:57:00.002-05:00

quote of the day

Hope

2010-11-04T19:01:00.001-04:00

me 5 years ago, i wanna be like him again

that person is afraid of my giant hand

2010-11-01T07:13:00.000-04:00

bonds

2010-10-30T22:04:00.002-04:00

I hate this feeling (again)

I wish something impossible

and dumb me, still hoping for it to come true

it would be really nice

but it is worth waiting?

I'm clueless

SIGH

I hope this goes away quickly...

do me a favor

2010-10-25T06:47:00.000-04:00

just don't hate me

you

2010-10-14T22:45:00.002-04:00

I know you knew it...
but you just don't wanna admit it..

me

pity?

you

won't

ever....

its 1202 am....

2010-10-10T00:02:00.004-04:00

Assalamualaikum...

Time: 1202 am
Day: Oct 10th

Right now, I'm studying biochemistry conformation & dynamics. It's MM equations and freaking difficult to understand. Sigh, swear to myself not to take ONLINE class ever again because I tend to procrastinate all the assignments, readings and what so ever.

Let's see, since I have not updated my blog since June, and there is a lot of things going on right now, maybe I would like to story you guys some of it and what other things that have gone through my mind.

Okay, some updates. I'm almost done with my Japanese minor! Hooray for me y'all! It has been like 6 tough quarters for me to confront this language class. I notice one of my weaknesses is learning foreign language. I admit that my English is not even good though compared with other Malaysians over here. It feels like I'm the worst. But yeah, it's my weakness and I don't want to talk about it in detail.

Oh yeah the Japanese minor. Since I'm almost done with it this quarter, I'm thinking to take another minor which is accounting. I love maths a lot since high school. And I love calculating money and money and money. Haha. There is one time I thought I wanted to be an accountant rather than a biotechnologist but it was too late =( . But hell yeah, I'm determined to do that accounting minor since I have lots of time left before graduate. So pray for me!!!!

Hurm, what else? Oh yeah, RAYA. To make it simple, I enjoyed celebrating RAYA over here. Full stop. 3 years already not celebrating RAYA with family, now feels like nothing. Already get used to be far away from them. They also understand how I feel. So, no homesick no "malaysia job"sick etc. It's not like I TOTALLY forget about them, feeling the way it's supposed to be. It's just the matter of time and distance, I believe, I believe I'm a matured strong person and I believe everything would end sooner. 2 years left is like 2 blinks of eyes. 1 year for each. =D

So what's up with my personal life? Huhu. Nothing much happened. Or I would rather say NOTHING happened. I'm just the same as the old me. No diet, no crush, no etc. My friends told me that I'm getting skinnier? Oh yeah I'm freaking skinny! SKINNIER than a person having the aneroxia nerbosa. HAHA. I think misspelled that.

But things get more difficult through out the years. Since I'm a junior, I have to take lots of elective classes, and its not that easy though. Plus having two positions in Malaysian club and UMNO has already made me crazy sometimes. You know, between studies, work, responsibility in clubs, I have to think smart, work hard on all of it. Sigh, that's all I can express to you guys right now. Maybe these obstacles... never mind. Forget it. My bad.

So, future plans? Vacation? Maybe. Already have a list of places to visit and enjoy. But I have to think twice, my personal financial account is not really that stable though. I have to be more saving since I have to pay for the minivan, flight ticket going back to Malaysia next year, buying important personal stuff etc. Since I'm a little 'boros' when things come to shopping, I will try not to do shopping that frequent.

It's October , hey today is 10:10:10 !!! =)

I have to go sleep la. Need to wake up at 430am to go work. =)

Before I end this post, let's read this,

Nabi s.a.w bersabda: "Malaikat sentiasa berdoa untuk seseorang kamu selama ia berada di tempat yang ia sembahyang padanya, selagi ia tidak berhadas, iaitu mereka memohon dengan berkata: "Ya Tuhan kami! Ampunilah dosanya, ya Tuhan kami! Berilah rahmat kepadanya."

Abu Huraiarah r.a

Till me meet next time!

Wassalam . PEACE! =)

It's almost 2.....in the morning

2010-06-27T13:44:00.002-04:00

and yes, still couldn't sleep. It's time to get some updates from me.

Going back to Malaysia is awesome. I had chance to visit kampung and met nenek and embah. We had kenduri arwah and made nasi ambang for the people who came to the house. It's not that big event, just a simple one, annually we would have it. Besides all my aunts were there too. It's like a big family gathering since Hari Raya plus I'm the only grandson did not celebrate it for two years, plus this year too. Sigh, I wish I could skip a week of classes for Raya, but I don't want too.

What I want to accomplish? Getting a driving license? Nope, because me and my family have a little financial crisis. My brother got into college and I understand that my family would spent more money foe his expenses. So I postponed it for next year. Yeah feels very noobs right now because I'm almost 21 and still don't know how to drive. I wish I could learn at least for one time but I don't have a chance. Because first my parents are busy working 8 to 12 hours everyday. Second we don't have a car but a big 13 years old mazda van. And third I have to take care of my lil sis and brother. Oh well I think I just have to rely to my roommates commuting to somewhere I want. BTW riding a scooter is the first thing I did when I arrived home. LOL.

Since we have the financial crisis, I got a job as a waiter at my old working place. At least I don't have to ask money from my dad everyday. LOL. Even though the pay is not that high, I would keep it in the bank for future. Besides it would be such a waste staying home doing nothing. I could die because of the boredom.

Learn cooking. Oh well I'm bad at that stuff. Full stop. Haha. Vacation? Don't feel going to. My passion now just working.

What I've been thinking recently is what car should I buy after I graduate and get a job? In my head...lots...haha but I either a persona or a vios. It's just a rough idea what car is the best for a new fresh working man. Maybe there are lots of cars better than those two. We will see. Sigh, I forget I still don't know how to drive.

FIFA. I don't watch the matches. I just wanna know the results. I'm rooting for Brazil now. GO BRAZIL!! YOU CAN DO IT!!

For those who will get a vacation trip, have a safe journey

For those who still studying for classes, good luck

For those who confers problems, please don't be sad and be strong. I pray for you guys.

I wish I would make this post longer. I have to sleep because tomorrow I have to 'bukak kedai' and 'susun meja' and 'kemas chiller' at 930.

sayounara minna-san

formspring

2010-05-19T06:45:00.002-04:00

ngehe

http://www.formspring.me/shryzl

ok bye..

wish list

2010-05-06T22:56:00.002-04:00

my wish list

1. a brand new laptop (usd1000)

2. nikon lense 18-200mm (usd700)

3. California trip (usd 1000)

4. cellphone - iphone 4g - dell lightning (usd 1000)

5. computer slate (usd 800)

6. fall fashion outfit (usd 300)

7. black friday shopping (usd 800)

8. winter fashion outfit (usd 500)

9. japan & korea trip (usd 3000++)

10. awek? (lol)

11. cuti2 malaysia + family trip (usd 500)

12. sony cybershot ipic (usd 500)

13. internship somewhere

14. nyc trip (usd 500)

15. used proton saga (usd 7000++)

16. new naza scooter (usd 4000++)

and others,,,but apparently,,not gonna fulfill all of it

=)

so much things to tell

2010-03-08T23:33:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum.

First of all, I just wanna say 'Hi' and 'Thanks' to all the readers. It has been such a long time I haven't updated my blog since 2 months ago I guess. But it doesn't really matter. So why am I writng this post? First, I'm a little bit free tonight and don't know what to do. Second, I'm bored and third, I just want to write something in English.

Winter quarter wasn't so bad for me even though my grade isn't that good. But I don't really care because it was my mistakes. Lots of things happened. Unification night, Cornell performance and others. I really enjoyed being enrolled in those activities. At least I can show myself as a 'useful' person and not the 'useless' one =)

Then I had a road-trip during a week break. OMG. It was so much fun especially meeting my friend from Michigan State University and Indiana-Bloomington University. They were awesome. I missed you guys so much. They showed me their universities and my first impression was they are much bigger and nicer compared to RIT @.@ I really like the castle-like buildings in Bloomington University. And I really enjoyed the Art Museum there. =) And one more thing, they have bigger 'green house'. Like seriously they as big as a whole field house in RIT. Again I was fascinated. Ahahaha, enough said. And SUNY Buffalo was awesome too! But I still love RIT though. =)

And I met Shereen! My best friend from MSU. She changed a lot. I mean a lot =) But I don't care. She is still Shereen that I know since we first met at Batu Jong Kuala Krai Kelantan. Thanks for presents.

Spring quarter. I take 15 credit hours.

Organic Chemistry III (Lecture and lab) - The new lecturer is Professor Tina Collison. I'm expecting she would be better than Dr. Smith. =) Need to concentrate more. (I used to be good in chemistry during high school =)

Intermediate Japanese II - No comment. Just 1 more class before I finish my minor in Japanese Language =)

Molecular Biology (Lecture and lab)- Just hope the best from Dr. D.

Analytical Chemical Separation (Lecture) - My seniors said it was an easy class. Idk but we will see. And I drop the lab because I don't think I could handle three labs in a week.

Eventually. MySA will have the biggest event ever from them this 5th week of the quarter called Malaysian week (I guess). And I will be participating mainly in dancing performances. Okay let me count. 4 dances. Indian dance, Sarawak dance, Asmaradana and Nirmala. Like seriously, they are really testing my stamina and skills. Eventhough I'm not good at dancing, I will try my best.

Lastly, Pray for me so I could finish this quarter with success. Amin.

p/s: the most exciting moment is, I will be going back to MALAYSIA peeps! AGAIN! For whole 3 MONTHS!! YEAY ME!!

Wassalam.

i hate u

2010-01-05T00:03:00.002-05:00

i hate u,,even i know u will not ever read this,,i hate u,,arghh!!
curse u ***!! will not ever talk to u again..sigh..

memories

2009-12-27T03:02:00.002-05:00

I slept at 9pm# woke up at 12am, then thought about the past till 2am.

And the best part was, I suddenly felt this kind so hard-to-explain-this-damn feeling.

Memories

I would say my almost whole life is useless. So many things have not been fully accomplished by me. Even worse, I just can't make them better. Such a loser. Sigh, if I could change the past, I would not feel so terrible right now.

Famous quote; the ship that will not sink forever is friendship. From my point of view, friend is someone that I know, and I could tell he/she is nice enough to talk about daily life matters. Yeah, I have lots of them back to my high school, INTEC, etc. Some of them are used to be my lets-do-things-together buddies and I appreciate them (a lot). I don't know if this situation just happens to me or anyone else, but somehow I lost contact with them when I moved to INTEC and then RIT.

I don't know if they still remember me or not but it makes me feel alone. Back to my high school, I was not a very popular student because I was not hot (kidding), but I have some good friends especially among girls. I admit it's good to be friends with girls with some reasons. Haha. But everything seems like so fuzzy, feels like, ok we stop being friends when we moved to a new place. Is it?

Yeah, I left comments to them via facebook, and I feel so sad when not many of them replied. I am so grateful when I still have some of them who are still contacting me till now. Thanks gman, syafiq, dem, azri and the gang. I really miss you all. Same things happen to my INTEC life, even it just 9 months. But I would not write anything about it because the story is almost the same.

What else? Yeah, I am a sinful person. Lots of things changed drastically since I moved to higher education institution. You all know I am an ex-badar and whatsoeverother positions in high school. Even though its not a big one, but still a sin right? Small matters even the slightest things I do, I just realized it now. How pathetic I am. Sigh.

Education problems. I'm getting lazier. Enough said. But I still survive though. @.@ . Erm, maybe not for this winter quarter. ORGO. ahhhhh. hahahahaha. killer subject. Not going to survive. >.< . Things that I always think right now. Graduate early, get a job, get the money, and live the way I want. And not forget, planning for 'cuti2 Malaysia' vacation this second half summer.

Hurm, I want to stop. Sleepy already. Sorry for the this long and notpoeticwhatever english I used. Sorry. My english is bad. Can't help. Not vocabrichtypepersontowriteswirlingsentenceswhatsoever. Mine is simple.

Till next time people. Appreciate you could survive reading this crap till now. Omedeto.. =)

sleepy and hungry

SHAH

today's story

2009-11-03T23:05:00.002-05:00

Hari nie mmg fuck giler..aku x taw nape..Followings are the things happened today that made today is a f***king day

1. In japanese class. I dropped my pencil case 5 times..urgh!!!

2. I left my orgo textbook in the lab at 12.00 pm. I didn't realize until 1.30 pm. And what makes it even worse. I forgot where the hell did i put the textbook. I walked around all over the place in building 8 and SAU, met Asma (5 times y'all), almost an hour I spent just only to find the book. At last, during microb lab, I found that f***ing heavy book. Where? the place where gloves are placed. F**k 123456789x

3. I thought today's lab gonna be short and simple, but it was not. For whatever reason, the reagents were all f**king 'whatever'. Like seriously, i don't wanna say about that.

4. just calculated my allowance from the very first I got to the US. And what? I have already gotten my book's allowance twice. Meaning, I will not get the allowance until next year. OMG, how am I gonna get money to buy ticket going back to MALAYSIA???,,anyone wanna help me??..oh please..

5. I wanna study orgo. but apparently, the ACE ORGANIC homework was too difficult, and I'm straying away doing other stuff. F**k orgo test 3 on Friday. Whatever Dr. Smith..

sigh, ashita, ii nichi ni narimashitane!!!

shah iry

doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimatandarou....

2009-10-26T23:21:00.004-04:00

feel so empty

fragile and quite

sigh...

wish u were here

sigh..

I have my friend....

2009-10-01T22:22:00.003-04:00

Assalamualaikum,,

I have my friend....

who agreed with my fb status...

he said he also had the same 'studies' problem with me..

And I replied, 'bwk sabar je la,,bln oktober nie mmg byk dugaan'

LOL!!!

I have my friend.....

now studying at Jakarta,,medic student..

I asked, "mcm mane kat sane?,,ade rase gempa x?'

And he said, 'kat sini x rase ape2, kat padang kowt!!'

I felt so 'bodoh' coz the tragedy happened at padang, and not at jakarta,,

URGH!!!

I have my friend....

in Malaysia and just get his brand new iphone..

He asked me, "cane nak download app kat sini?"

I replied, "pegi jah kedai telepon, nanti die bg free jah"

He said, 'aku da pi kedai apple, die kate aku kene beli sendiri'

And I replied with, ''''@.@''''

I have my friend

'ym'ed me, 'party in the USA la'

and I shocked coz I was listening to that song at that time,

I replied, 'aku tgh dgr la nie, tp paparazzi lg best'

He said, 'paparazzi best tp video die mcm......................'

last2, I 'ym'ed him, 'aku suke video die, biar la....'

I have few friends

'gossip telling' time with lots of halal cheeseburgers,

hot2 issues were discussed,

and dang!!,,I said 4 minutes b4 class started (not mine),

and they replied, 'LAB JAH!!!'

I have my friend

actually my aunts and uncle!!

who are about the same age as me,,

adding my fb and asking my 'khabar' here,,

and I just, 'diam seribu bahase'....

And I have my friend,

'fb'ing me during class hours

he said, 'AIREE!!!!'

and I didn't reply at all

SORRY!!!!

Wassalam

If you know me, you will regret

2009-09-14T17:37:00.002-04:00

I'm telling the truth,

Based on my past memory,

Since I was a little child,

Nothing so good to happen,

Just things cannot be more wierd.

-iry-

tell me your wish.....

2009-08-26T12:44:00.003-04:00

Assalamualaikum...

sowoneul marhaebwa! I'm genie for you, girl!

At last after 3 months of holiday, I feel so damn good staying in Malaysia with family. Hurm, I didn't have any interesting activity during the holiday. Just working as a part time floor service at secret recipe, my old workplace. Haha. That's it. No vacation. No trip. But, at least I went to KL every weekend watching movies and meeting my friends. I'm not that 'xde life' of workaholic or something.

So, I'll be going back this morning. As usual, Cathay Pacific airline. And the most crucial one, I'm all alone. Sigh, I have already requested for the flight changes, but they said it's fully booked. No immediate changes until 15 sept. Sigh, so, no choice. I have to. But it's okay. I make as a challenge or me. I'm not a teenager anymore. I'm a young male adult. Huhu.

I hope I could survive for this 36 hours of journey. KUL-HKG(4 hours), HKG airport(4 hours), HKG-JFK(16 hours), JFK airport(10 hours), JFK-ROC(2 hours). I know I will be so tired when I arrive at Rochester. Sigh. Okay, it's a REAL challenge to me. aiyark.

Ok, don't know hat to write. Just pray for my save journey. That's all. Ok. Bye2

Wassalam.

happy to me

2009-05-21T03:03:00.004-04:00

Peace be upon with you,,

yeay, i'm officially no longer a freshman. that is, all the problems that i have faced through my first year are now over. nothing to be worried since i would hibernate for the whole summer (can't wait to go back to my hometown) sigh.

through 9 whole months going through all the difficulties in the states, lots of things i have learned. i don't have any intention to make the list but as a conclusion, all of them are really make me act maturer, think maturer. then, be a nice person is the most crucial. that's it.

to my family out there[iwan je kot yg bace], don't worry about me, less than a week we will meet. just pray for my safetiness when i'm on board and everything else. for my studies, hurm, what can i say, err, don't worry too. muahaha. it seems to be my performance for my freshman year is all good. nothing to worry. yeah, i've got some 'b's but as long there is no 'c', it's good enough.

for flight detail,,erm,,the plane will arrive at klia around 700pm with flight number, cx721. the transit will be from hong kong since i will change the plane there, so don't search for departure from jfk, search for hong kong instead.

so, see u guys, pray for me k,,

wassalam

to all smokers and non-smokers!!,,

2009-05-04T20:11:00.002-04:00

Peace be upon with you,,

Dear readers,,i found a great video to watch,,worth it though,,=),,

Ok guys,,see you around,,good luck exam,,=),,

wassalam.

of anything~

2009-04-18T21:00:00.002-04:00

Peace be upoen with you,,

As usual, nothing much happened recently except few things..

1. I have 2 more midterm exams this week; algebra & chemistry..(Both of them are all about calculations,,sigh,,)

2. Had Citrawarna and BBQ,,AWESOME!!!

3. 4 weeks left before spring quarter end!!,,yeeeehah!!

4. Received new desktop last Friday,,unspeakable,,=P,,

To all readers,,good luck in your final exams,,jawab pekse elok2,,jgn emo2,,LOL

Wassalam..

p/s: ade ke patot bdk2 frat da start berendam tgh2 mlm!!,,da la buat bising,,isk2,,

bad boy-

2009-04-06T21:59:00.002-04:00

Peace be upon with you..

Firstly,,the title of this entry is nothing to do with its contents. Just 'saje2 letak' to fill the box. Sigh, almost a month I haven't updated this blog since the spring quarter started. Common reason = BUSY..ngeee~~.

Updating myself
1. getting busier with events and exams this week and next week,,-.-,,
2. last 4 weeks were not good as I planned,,sigh,,
3. release tension - spend $65 at Hollister + $35 at BR + $85 for my new mp3..=P..
4. Killer subject - IntroBio 3 'mmg x paham' especially kidney thingy,,oh no,,
5. ~controllable ~ less emo ~ do more homework and homework - takusan shukudai wa totemo tanoshidesune. Demo, tokidoki, muzukashi desuyo..ittai!!
6. Currently, i'm obsessed with SNSD a.k.a girl generation - gee - into the new world -LOL

Lately, lots of things happened. some people are emo, some people are 'demam' and some people are 'rilex - x dtg kelas berturut2 in a week - I was like WTF??'. Haha. Whatever. Btw, to all guys outthere,

'jadikan hari ini lebih baik dr semalam, dan hari esok lebih baik dr hr ini'(today is not a good day for me,,aiya)

soreja,,take care.

The Rain in April Brings The Flower in May ~ sorry if the sentence is structurely wrong ..

Wassalam.

Maulidul Rasul

2009-03-09T17:37:00.001-04:00

Dengan ini saya mengucapkan

"SELAMAT MENYAMBUT MAULIDUL RASUL"

wassalam

short updates

2009-03-05T09:40:00.005-05:00

Peace be upon with you.............

Updating myself:

1. 11 weeks to go till the end of freshmen year!!

2. Happy with winter quarter results =P

3. Taking bio, chem, Japanese and algebra for spring,,

4. Hope I would get better results this time,,

5. new hope - new quote for me -

'don't bother with other people, other things that are not really important to you.
love yourself is even better than caring about other people who even don't think about you.
that is totally a waste.
you have experienced to live worse than you are now.
so, keep living to the fullest without depending on others.
yes, don't bother with them.

wassalam

"it hurts a lot"

2009-02-26T13:45:00.002-05:00

they can be different today than yesterday

randomizing things whatever the heart to say
or waiting for someone to pay

makes me really got to delay
insisting them not to lay

since I'll be waiting at the bay

everyday

~iry~

i guess i feel alright

2009-02-24T19:47:00.006-05:00

but it hurts
when i think
when i let it sink in
it's all over me

Dedicated special to you

2009-02-23T13:53:00.002-05:00

I wish you GOOD LUCK in final exam..

GAMBAREYO

~iry~

Maybe I'm not lucky enough....

2009-02-18T19:43:00.005-05:00

I really wanna something
but I couldn't
because of circumstances
that cannot be avoided
amazingly
I have dreamed it
for a long of time
but it keeps saying 'no'
what does it mean?

maybe I should stop dreaming
think about capability
that I wouldn't get it
anyway

and maybe I'm not lucky enough
because I'm still not found
the four leaf clover

and don't be sad
because I know
that 'something'
is not fit with me

~iry~

minna,,

2009-02-12T16:57:00.002-05:00

Peace be upon with you,,

Just finished data exam,,which was kinda hard for multiple choice questions,,but it's okay,,
I'm very happy knowing other people happy story,,and
I'm sad when knowing something bad to others,,

At least I know of having life is wonderful isn't it?,,even I'm not the lucky guy among them,,
Hopefully I will get it someday,,

BTW, it hurts when people hate me. Sigh. I wish I could reverse the time and not doing what I have done now. But yet, I could not.

Erk,,lame post,,need to finish homework,,

Wassalam...

only you

2009-02-10T21:10:00.002-05:00

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful,,

Ya Allah,,
only you I ask for help,,
only you I ask for hope,,
only you I ask for bless,,
and only you I ask for forgiveness,,

Ya Allah,,
please keep me strong,,
because lately I face lots of problems,,
please forgive for all my sins,,
because I have done tons of bad things before,,
please keep your enemy to stay away from me,,
because lately they keep me to become so lazy,,

Ya Allah,,
thank you for your bless,,
because I never get sick since last year,,
thank you for your help,,
because I manage to control myself from doing something bad,,
thank you for your 'anything'
because that 'anything' keeps me stay a Muslim

Ya Allah,,
please forgive my parents' sins
my friend's sins
and all people's sins
because I know you will always forgive our sins

Ya Allah,,
only you I depend on,,
please keep me safe from anything,,
keep me strong to face exams and homework,,
and keep me always to remember you,,

Amin,,,

open heart

2009-02-04T23:15:00.025-05:00

Peace be upon with you....

Sigh, it has been a long time since my last post. Lots of things happened, busy with studies and etc. Me??,,Alhamdulillah. I'm still in good condition, never get any flu or fever yet, although now is 'sick' season here. Somehow I feel very so grateful to Allah for my health body. =D.

Guess what??,,for this post,,I will write anything that is stored in my mind since last post.

People are hard to be judged. Even me, it's hard to think whether someone action is correct or not. So far as I remember, I have live for almost 20 years without any strong dependent to others. Since I entered boarding school, I realized I would face all challenges and obstacles all alone. I was freakin' out actually, but whenever I had problems, I would try to solve it as best as I could.

Gee...its remind me when I was 5 years in the boarding school, my parents would go there twice a year. First, early of the school year on January to send all the stuff , and second during the end of school academic for that year on November to pick my stuff again. For 2 weeks break or whatever break it is in the middle of school year, I would go back home by bus. And went back to school by bus too. I realized that, from it, I learn to be independent. BTW, I had never go back to home for weekend holiday. I mean 3 days at home. It was just wasting my money.

I like to watch people's behavior and analyze it. Because from there, i would become maturer mentally. Including myself, I would think of what people around me have done every night. It doesn't matter what they did to me or others. 'secare langsung or x langsung'. good or bad. relieving or hurting. I try my best to be the best. Satisfying everybody needs even somehow it hurts me. I try to be a kind and other good behavior and attitude. But somehow, there is, at least, one day I would become so moody. But it doesn't take a long time.

In my head right now, everybody makes mistake including me. When people don't like me, hate me, or did something bad to me, I just accept it with open heart. If people like me, I would be so grateful. I just don't want people to hate me. That's all.

Emotionally status: WHATEVER!!...pasrah..and things to do next...try to solve it....I am me..me is me..LOL..

Actually, I have been tagged by gman,,(sorry for the late G...)...here we go

"The rules are simple. Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of the results, and post it as your answer. After that tag 6 people."

I am

screwed

I really wanna go to

london

My favorite things are

Hoodies!!Jeans!!

My favorite drinks are

Strawberry smoothie!!!Water

My favorite foods are

Roti canainasi lemak

koko crunch

My favorite colors areblack

White

Red

I live and born in

Petaling jaya

I attendedSemesta

INTEC

RIT

My favorite movies areTRANSFORMERS!!!

TWILIGHT!!!!

My hobbies areReading

Surfing

Sigh,,at last,,then,,people I wanna tag

~barry~

~pao~

~jiji~

~mior~

~miem??~

~ecah momo~

~RITansssssssssss~

BYE2
Wassalam

Updating,,collecting,,informing,,

2009-01-19T14:59:00.003-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

Just wanna write anything that crosses my mind.

Firstly, I just wanna say Good Luck to Abg Hafiz yang SELAMAT SAMPAI at Malaysia. Eat Roti Canai + Nasi beryani + prosperity Burger. Waaaaaa...Nak jugak!!!!Take care and don't forget us here that stucked in RIT "=.="

And Kak Neesun too. GAMBATE!!!!

Erm, yeah, Happy Birthday to Pao and Ecah Momo for their birthdays. Sweet 22 to Pao and Sweet 21 to Ecah Momo. Sorry for the late wishes, but at least I write it in my blog. LOL.

Status for this week. Busy. With? Exams = BIO + CHEM. Btw, they gonna be on the same day. this Thursday. Aiya.

Financially, I need to save some money. Yeah, need to pay 300usd for RIT housing reservation. And I'm still working. Pushing the cart on snowy road. It's hard and kill my back!! But for money, I need too.

Busy with Malaysia Club Events. Dikir practice + Asia Aweness week(??????) + ........................(malaysian student festival that the name has not been decided yet). I feel like, it's gonna happen soon, and i'm not prepared anything yet. Sigh..

Kuala Terengganu milik PAS. For me, I could say, good, positive. Because it happened in good way, I mean no gaduh2 and whatsoever. And AJL23, Meet Uncle Hussein wins. I feel like, neutral, coz I don't even know what songs that have been played during that competiton. LOL.

Then, I feel like terribly angry with someone. I don't know why that kind of person always wanna find my faults. Mistakes. Sigh, It is really frustrated me. My word' -plz don't interrupt my business- plz-.

Hurm, please pray allowance will go into my bank account next 2 weeks. Haha.

Adios folks.

Wassalam.

p/s: Iwan dah xreti nak online kah??,,mengapakah ayah melarang kamu online???

From RIT to MarketPlace Mall To Israel

2009-01-13T22:12:00.002-05:00

Peace be upon with you..

Life doesn't go well today as people are busy as always. Same with me here. I feel like everything is not right. Something wrong that I do not noticed since I woke up this morning. Guess what, things to be accomplished for this week.

1. Study for data and analysis 1st exam = Thursday
2. Biology lab notebook and lab report = Friday
3. Chemistry lab report = Next Monday
4. Study for biology test = Next Wednesday
5. Japanese exam = Next week
6. Dikir for Unification Day = Next4x week = takot2!!!

I'm like, duh??. Week 5!! I need to struggle to finish all the homework and start studying. Sigh. But that is not the topic that I wanna share. Hurm, let me start with this....

Yes, Palestine has been attacked AGAIN by Israel. And yes, I do concern with that sort of war I think. What can I do to help them? First of all, yes, pray to ALLAH SWT for saving the Palestine people from those no heart Israeli.

That is the only thing that I could do for now. Every night, I get IM from my friends wrote like, 'bace surah Al-Ikhlas sebanyak 7 kali. Sekaramg Masjid Al-Aqsa sedang dikepung oleh tentera Israel. Tolong sebarkan secepat mungkin.' And you know what i do? I recite the surah, but I just let those IM be. I didn't send it to other people. Am I wrong? I thought that other people would also get the same IM as me. Sigh, I confused with my action. Should I? Should'nt I? Any body wanna say something?

Then, the most bulletin that I read to save those people, BOYCOTT everything that is related to Israel. Colagate, KitKat, Coca-Cola and other stuff. And today, I get an email from my high school senior. When I read the email, it somewhat shocked me for a moment. Ok. Read this.

Syarikat : Nestle
Jenama : Kit Kat, Perrier, Libby, Nescafe, Maggie, Buitoni, Nestea, Freskies, Vittel, Pure Life, Nido, Smarties, Lion, Polo, After Eight, Coffee Mate, Nesquik, Aero, Quality Street, Felix (cat food), Crosse & Blackwell, Milkmaid, Carnation, Shreddies, Baci Baby Ruth, Butterfinger, Milkybar, Frutips
Fakta : Syarikat Swiss ini dimilikki 50.1% oleh syarikat Israel, Osem Investments. Pada tahun 2000 mengumumkan untuk melabur berjuta-juta dolar di Israel dalam R & D. Pada tahun Peter Brabeck-Letmathe bagi pihak Nestle menerima Anugerah Jubli daripada Perdana Menteri Netanyahu.

When I turn my head to my drawer, I realize that just bought a NesTea product from corner store. And I still have Maggie in my drawer. This another one.

Syarikat : IBM
Fakta : Mempunyai 1700 pekerja di Israel. Satu dari 3 syarikat yang disanjung semasa Jamuan Makan Malam Liga Persahabatan Amerika-Israel Untuk Demokrasi pada 25 Jun 2001 bersama Ariel Sharon.
Syarikat : Intel
Produk : Perkakasan komputer
Fakta : Intel adalah penyokong kuat Israel. Pusat pembangunan pertama di luar Amerika didirikan di Haifa pada 1974.

I'm using AMD. But, INTEL kot!!!!! And last one.

Syarikat : Delta Galil Industries Ltd.
Produk : Pasaraya, Pakaian dan Kasut
Jenama : JC Penney , Carrefour Nike, Reebok, Converse, Calvin Klein, Gap, Boss, Ralph Lauren, Banana Republic, Bauer, Wrangler, Dim, Old Navy Dockers, Celio, J. Crew , Caterpillar, Lou Riders, Pryca
Fakta : Syarikat kain terbesar Israel. Pengasasnya Dov Lautman adalah kenalan rapat Presiden Israel ketika itu Ehud Barak.

Sigh, when I go to MarketPlace Mall, I would use JC PENNY fitting room to solat!!..JC PENNY. And I will go to BANANA REPUBLIC and GAP to watch for new items. Sigh. I have I GAP jeans. Plus 2 OLD NAVY woolenjacket. Aiya.

So, what I am wondering is, why everything that I buy, I like to use, has to be somewhat related with Israel. I'm just like, 'WHAT??'

All in all. I will try not buy thing from that place again. TRY. That is good enough than never. So, think about it. I sure you will wonder same with me.

Wassalam

p/s: I still have American Eagle and PacSun to buy my outfits. YEA2!!!

things to accomplish this week,,

2009-01-09T21:33:00.002-05:00

Peace be upon with you,

Goals for this week:
1. study data and analysis ( enjoy =] )
2. finish lab report and notebook for bio
3. complete chem lab report and pre-lab,,
4. study nihon!!
5. not forget, bio quiz

Sigh, lots of work. Determination + Desire = Dang!!!!

Wassalam.

penat,,sgt penat,,

2009-01-07T22:05:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum.

Entry emo. Sigh, I really don't have any idea why suddenly I'm being emo again. It's all about lab reports BIO and CHEM. Sigh, belom ambik lg lab tissue, orgo and wutsoever next year. Da pening kepale otak. Adoi!!..Let's imagine, I just spend more than 5 hours doing the calculation for my chem lab. It's so frustrated. Aiya, Lab bio plak, sigh, bacteria culture, but I don't think I know the objective of what I'm doing until now. It's like, "WHAT THE HECK AM I DOING??".

Ok, got headache already. Lupe plak, blog nie xde sape nak bace, bcoz bdk2 bz right now with hal2 mereka sendiri. So, bye.

Wassalam.

p/s: jgn jd mcm saye

Try it!!!

2009-01-05T20:40:00.002-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

Hey guys! Check this out. It's something that I get from my friend!!

If you watch the above images from your seat in front of the computer, Mr.Angry is on the left, and Mrs.Calm is on the right.

Get up from your seat, and move back about eight feet!!

They switch places!!
This proves that things aren't always what they look like!!

So, How is it? Cool huh?

So,bye...homework to do!!!

Wassalam.

Holiday vs.Study

2009-01-04T20:02:00.003-05:00

Peace be upon with you..

Tomorrow, me as a student life will resume, and I'm now trying to open books, finish homework, switch my body into study mood and etc. related with educational stuff. Let me tell you some facts when I am in study mood:

1. Everyday, I will sleep at 12 a.m, and wake up at 7 a.m.
2. After finishing with the last class of the day, LIBRARY, HERE I COME!!!
3. At library, I will try to finish my homework and study (facebooking + friendstering + youtubing are compulsary to do if I feel like,,,DUH???)
4. Plus, I will borrow laptop from circulation desk, and renew it at 9 p.m.
5. I go back to dorm at 11 p.m, kemas2 my stuff for tomorrow, and go to sleep.
6. Lunch at SAU, dinner at RITZ SPORT - cheese pizza is the most common meal I order!!!,,and not to forget, cheesey wedges + fries...
7. Weekend, working from 5 to 10 a.m, then sleep for a while, and dinner at commons. (Believe me, I have not gone to gracies since this winter quarter started,,that was amazing thou)

Facts when I'm in holiday mood:

1. Depends, but my biological clock will change = SLEEP MORE!!,,EAT MORE!!,,LAZY!!
2.I will try to do something benificial,,like reading books,,(just like i'm reading Twilight Saga during Fall Break)
3. If I'm on vacation, I will become more energetic,,yeeeehaaaah!!!,,FLORIDA!!!!!!!!
4. No Idea....end

Btw, my status for now,

1. I'm broke,,need to save money,,
2. Cuaks with biology subject,,and chemistry too!!!
3. REALLY HATE SNOW!!! (sorry Afnan, I couldn't help myself)
4. Budgeting my financial spend,,
5. I'm 20 years old this year!!!,,WHAT?????

Ok, need to continue study japanese. Chiao..

Wassalam.

,,my life is resumed,,

2009-01-02T23:28:00.002-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR to all of you. Sigh...I wonder why time travels so fast. It's 2009 already. And I'm getting older and older. Sigh....I still have a long way to go. Studying, working, and others. Lots of things need to think of, and I don't want to. When it comes with perfect time, then I will think about it. I don't like to mess up my head that already full with problems. Hurm..

Talking about future things, people usually have new aims, new objectives, new whatever for every New Year, but I'm not. And I never had before. Aimless. It's not like I don't have any goal in my life, it's just not for anual routine that needs to be refreshed every year. Plus, I don't think about my future thoughly. What job I wanna be, where am I gonna stay and all crappy questions that are not necessary to think about now. And I just have few goals right now.

1. Graduate
2. (No idea)

Yeah, what I want now is graduate from RIT. I don't know what I gonna do after that because I still have 3 and half years to go. But, for sure, I don't think I would continue taking MS immediately after that. I need to work first, make sure I have strong financial report, help my family, and other stuffs. I feel that learning is somewhat sressful. I really need a break after learning continuously for 12 years since I was 7. Sigh...I have to do something else instead of studying.

BTW, I just came back from Florida. I don't wanna talk about it because you could find story tellers other than me. What can I say about my vacation....AWESOME....

It's 12 a.m. Sigh, I really hate snow right now. I wish I could be in Florida again

Wassalam.

wished things

2009-01-02T23:16:00.002-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

~the first 7 wishes that comes to my mind~

~I wish I would be happy forever~

~I wish I would always be rich..LOL~

~I wish I'm working right now (tired of studying already)~

~I wish I have never done my evil things before~

~I wish I would be just like other normal people...yaiks~

~I wish I would have good memories~

~I wish all my 6 wishes come true immediately~

Wassalam.

i'm leavin..

2008-12-20T08:53:00.003-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

I'm leavin.... never come back again,,
Jesse McCartney- Leavin'

So, I'm leaving today from residence hall, going to jijoe's home sweet home. And next Tuesday, I'm leaving Rochester, going to Florida. Yea2. Firts time having vacation in US. I wonder how it looks like. Sigh.

So long I have never been posting any topic. Since I'm quit busy with classes and homework. But all things are covered successfully. Don't worry. So far, so good. Taking 17 credit hours for this quarter, plus working as a custodian, it seems a real challenge for me. Especially during winter. (exhausted pushing the cart with full of trash and snowy road. ADEI).

All in all, I wanna enjoy my holiday. And trying to finish Breaking Dawn (half more). So, I wish you all happy holiday and happy new year (awal lg). HOI HOI Florida, Here I Come.

Wassalam.

~Tig tag tog~

2008-12-13T09:10:00.002-05:00

Peace be upon with y0u...

I have been tagged by bari and pau!!!,,all come from jiji,,ces!!!!

1. 5 Ciri Wanita/Lelaki Idaman Anda :

~ Agame kuat (plg crucial!!)
~ pandai masak
~ bertolak ansur & bertoleransi dlm semue hal
~ 'mak turut' (ngeeeeee...-ikut ckp)
~ cantik dan seksi (awwwww)

2. 5 Wanita/Lelaki Yang Tak Pernah Anda Minati Sepanjang Hidup :

~ biadap!!!
~ Mata duitan + pisau cukur
~ memerintah si lelaki....no way!!
~ not open minded
~ ugly....+ x pandai masak!!

3. 5 Perasaan Anda Sekiranya Keluar Dengan Orang Yang Minati :

~ bahagia (alangkah indahnya, hidup ini....)
~ malu2 kucing (awwww!!!)
~ rase sayang dan suke...
~ kelam-kabut (thinking of next thing to do..shopping ke movie??)
~ teruja...LOL

4. 5 Tempat Istimewa Yang Ingin Dilawati Bersama Pasangan Anda :

~ beach yang indah,,tulis name atas pasir,,ambik gambar,,,
~ high class restaurant,,dinner ala2 nak confess will u marry me,,LOL.,,
~ hollywood!!
~ taman tasik titiwangsa,,naik bende alah yang pusing2 tuh,,
~ sydney autralia...

5. 5 Barangan/Sesuatu Istimewa Yang Akan Anda Hadiahkan Kepada Si Dia :

~ jewerly (tggu keje dpt gaji)
~ bunga anggerik hari2,,kalau x pon once in a week
~ kain sutera buat kebaye,,,hohoho
~ tudung,,tudung bawal,,
~ jam dgn handbag,,,

6. Tajuk Lagu Yang Akan Anda Nyanyikan Untuk Pasangan Anda..

~ Yang teristimewa - SHAHILA ~ kau yang teristimewa..
~ my love - justin timberlake -
~ bude buai - korean song
~ aserehe - last ketchup - aserehe a rehe rehe.......
~ kau ilhamku - man bai....

7. Rakan Yang Anda Tag Dan Mahu Mereka Buat 5 PERIHAL Ini. Wajib!!!!

~ joe - kene tulis atas kertas pastu bg kat aku,,LOL
~ gman -
~ izwan -
~ miem???,,hehe sori
~ aisyah,,hoho,,

"semue yg tertulis diatas adalah bergantung kepade ability saye pada masa tersebut,,kalau duit xde,,xde la nak beli jewerly, pergi hollywood,,LOL,,dan lain2 lg."

Wassalam

bella's lullaby

2008-12-09T19:29:00.002-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

I wonder why I'm now addicted with twilight soundtrack. LOL. It sounds ridiculous as I have never been addicted to any other movie soundtrack before. Sigh. Top 5 songs.

1. Bella's lullaby - carter burwell
2. Full moon - black ghost
3. Decode - paramore
4. Supermassive black hole - muse
5. Leave out all the rest - linkin park

Thanx to gman bcoz introduce me to paramore, and jiji for converting the song.

Btw, I have finished reading eclipse. Sigh. What a very complicated love story. Can't wait for breaking dawn.

Wassalam.

Happy Eid Ul Adha

2008-12-07T09:23:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum.

I feel that Eid Ul Fitri is celebrated last few weeks. Even it's actually has been held 2 months ago. So short, tomorrow is Eid Ul Adha. So, I wish Happy Eid Ul Adha to all of you. I hope we together will success in the future. Amin.

Btw, happy birhday to my young little sister for her 7th birthday. Sorry, no present.

Today...

I realized, and I have always been realized,

That life is not gonna be happy all the time. There will be the sad part too, in between of them.

To make me fell as a normal real person.

And, life is not gonna be lucky all the time. There will be some time, I need to put effort on it.

To make life becomes better.

Wassalam.

- - what ARE they TO me - -

2008-12-03T21:12:00.002-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

Family - the one who is my first love. No offense. They give me everything I want. Food, money, happiness, education, living place and many more. This joint cannot be broken easily. I miss them very much because, they make me as who I am now. I feel the responsibility to take care of them, to make them happy, to pay all of their effort , although it could not ever be happened. It is called LOVE.

Friends - the one who am I easily hanging out with. Sometimes, the one who am I taking care of. They comfort me when I'm in trouble. That is nice. Together we go out for meal, shopping, gossiping and even talking about problems. Yeah, they are different by levels. Acquaintance, friends and best friends. But somehow, they are all just the same. Who know of my existence here on earth. It is called LOVE.

Soul-mate - the one who am I, of course, love with, live with and die with. Although I don't have any, I could feel through of what I see, what I hear and what I listen. So sweet. Romantic. Even it could contribute into jealously. It doesn't matter what consequences that we might be faced. As long as we are together, strong, nothing is impossible. The perfect sentence to my future lover, "I'm all yours." It is called LOVE.

From what I have mentioned, they are all MY LOVE. It just they are distinctly different by what I feel to them. Like, miss, comfort, love, jealous, responsible. All kind of feelings. Mixed together. Poor me.

As poor as Bella. She insisted Edward to turn her life, to be immortal, strong, protective. Change her int o someone who could protect Charlie and Renee from danger. The feel of responsible and not giving all it on to Cullen's shoulder. To be with Edward forever and ever. Even it could hurt Jacob's heart, as someday, it would turn from best friend to historical enemy. No tolerance either. But, no one like the changes. Sigh, poor Bella.

Poor me. I insist myself to be cool. It's hard, but I already get into it a long time ago. It's bitter too. No one know. So, be happy of what we have. Grateful is most important. Because you are lucky. Luckier than me. Sigh. Really need to complete homework.

Wassalam.

New journey begins,,,

2008-12-03T13:02:00.004-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

Winter quarter has started for 3 days. So far, so good. It just I need to be more hardworking because most of the classes, I'm the only Malaysian. Sigh. I also need to memorize lots of things as I'm taking foreign language here. So, I wish you all good luck then.

Wassalam.

p/s: ape cerite dikir??

Quote,,,,,

2008-11-30T23:49:00.003-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

Life is difficult. I admit it. No offense. Because I feel terrible. So terrible. Thinking about my life, again and again, is really pissed me off. No wonder people could not know me, I guess so. So my point is, I'm f***ing dumb a**. Sigh, I'm really need......... sigh, forget it.

,,there is nothing about my life except craziness,,

,,sometimes,,loneliness can make me smile,,and,,
,,sometimes,,loneliness can make me cry,,

,,beautiness is a BONUS for people,,whatever they want,,they will get it easily,,

,,sometimes,,I wanna love someone and wanna be love by someone,,
,,sometimes,,I wanna hate someone but don't wanna be hate by someone,,
,,can I deserve dat??,,seems impossible,,

,,it's not easy to understand someone's heart,,and,,
,,it's not easy to understand my heart,,but,,
,,I wish I'm not existed,,serious,,

,,everyone cannot be trusted,,

,,addicted,,something that cannot be changed,,

Those are my quotes I made up. Sounds not beautiful. Yeah, I'm not a poet. And quote of this new month:

,,putting high expectation on something would make someone crazy,,real crazy,,

I need to go to sleep. (I hope I could experience happy life, at least in my dream,,sigh,,)

Wassalam.

I love shoes,,

2008-11-30T23:27:00.006-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

Collecting shoes is my passion since I was 15. If I could remember, I have collected about 15 pairs of shoes back to my home with different types. Sneakers, school-like shoes, basketball shoes, hoppers shoes, PVC shoes and even dancing shoes. How pathetic I am. But, I just brought 2 pairs here at RIT. And one of them seems to be unwearable. LOL. I like hoppers shoes most. So, I bought new shoes at the Mall. And my favorite colors are red, white and black.

My old red white shoes

My new black white shoes

My new Black shoes

If you could notice, I like to tie the shoes differently than normal. Huhu. My habits to look special than others.

ecah kentang and mine - same habit,,hoho,,

Somehow i miss my old shoes at home.WAWAWAWA. Okay, Till next post.

Wassalam.

-same interest-

2008-11-30T16:05:00.005-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

It seems to be like everyone is busy with twilight stuff. Either watching its movie or reading the Twilight Saga novels. In RIT, several senior girls are big fans of this story. So am I. The first time I watched the movie last Sunday, I feel like, I'm going to read this book.

And yes, I bought it at Barnes&Noble and did finish read the book in 2 days because there was nothing to do in my room. So, I compared both of the story from book and movie. I found several parts are different from both of them.

1. Twilight novel gives me more precise plot about the story

2. Bella does not buy the Quilette History book at the Port Angeles bookstore

3. Bella firmly tells Edward that he is a vampire and it is not Edward who wants Bella to say itlouder about who he is actually.

4. Jacob dances with Bella at her prom night and tells her not to be friend with Edward.

So, I read New Moon next day. And I feel like so angry with Jacob Black. AAAAAAAAAA. Because he.......I'm not gonna tell you. Read the book.

My status now about reading the book: Frustrated because Eclipse is out of stock at Barnes&Noble. Sigh.

Ok, Let's turn to the movie. What can I say is, it is a very exciting movie. Maybe it could be nominated as the Movie Of The Year. LOL. Plus, I love Cullen Family especially Carlisle Cullen. Because he is a very strong hearted vampire.

I can't wait for the New Moon movie to release. Hehe.

wassalam.

~Same voices~

2008-11-30T02:41:00.002-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

It's normal for siblings to have same voice. Not exactly the same but almost. Yeah, I do have voice same with my 2nd brother and he is a bigger than me (no offence okay!). There are 2 interesting stories.

FIRST

If our mama or ayah calls home and either of us answers it, the first thing come out from them is,"Ni abg mane nie??". So, as usual, we need to introduce ourselves to our parent. Sigh. What a heck!!

SECOND

I copy and paste the post from my 2nd bro. Once upon a time....

http://eizonce.blogspot.com/2008/11/nasuha.html

So, that is the story. Haha. There have been a long time I don't contact him. He is my junior and he is nice too. LOL.

Okay. Need to sleep right away.
Wassalam

''fate''

2008-11-28T08:49:00.004-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

Sigh....When I think about my life, it's complicated. And when I try a little bit harder, a little bit future, it stress me out because it is complicated. Thinking about analogy, it just like a very long way, too many paths. I wonder which one should I choose, and scare if all the paths are wrong, straight to the dead ends. My eyes couldn't see any lights more. It just the dark, covering my whole life. Sigh.....

Yes. I do read blogs. Knowing what they do, what they feel and what they think. It seemes everyone has their own happy sad things.
And yes, I do feel upset. When they have something and I don't.
And yes, I do feel down. When they do something and I don't.
And yes, I do feel bad....and sad. When I think.....how AWFUL I am.

Someone said to me - you did a wise decision my friend this week -
I simply replied - I know -
Yet, my heart just felt like - blizzards were going all the way around my body -

Someone said to me - you are undescribable (I don't remember the exact word, but it has something related with that word) -
I simply replied - maybe -
Yet, I do. People are quit difficult to know me. What am I exactly. The real me.

What I am thinking right now?
Wondering if I could be as strong as Carlisle Cullen from Twilight Saga. A very kind vampire, living immortal, not sucking people's blood. Even he is a doctor. Rich and yet still happy with himself, even he had gone through the bittherness of his previous life.

But....I know it is impossible to be a vampire just like him.
And...I realize, this is the ''fate'' that I choose a long time ago. Sour, bitter, dark.
And...I realize, I need to continue my life by using the fate I choose. Sour, bitter, dark.
Till my heart is stop functioning, till the end of my journey.

Wassalam.

p/s - sorry being emo again. just expressing my thought. and no one is related. it is just EVERYONE in general.

broken

2008-11-27T23:56:00.003-05:00

Peace be upon with you,,

It's not about broken heart,,
It's just about broken.....GLASSES

Sigh,,I stepped on my beautiful black glasses last few days when I woke up in the morning. I had never realized it was on the floor and I stepped on it hard. At last, the right lense broke. Ouch, my foot was hurt too. I screamed, but not loud. And yeay me, because I have another blue specs that I could use then. But somehow, I missed my broken glasses. Awwww...

Sigh, I wonder how much the cost only for the lense here at the Mall. Would it be expensive?

p/s: iwan,,pls go to the optical store at giant kj. Then, ask whoever in the store to trace my latest record. Last, copy all the info and give it to me through email. Remember, do not miss any info plz,,,

Wassalam.

Custodian during holidays

2008-11-23T23:08:00.003-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

Early morning for every weekend, I wake up going to work as a custodian. The main thing I do is picking up trash and sending it to some other place. Instead of it, sometimes I need to sweep the floor, mop it and vacuum it. I think this job is almost the same as a cleaner. Yeah a cleaner. I'm really grateful because at last, I get a job as the second source of money instead of allowance from MARA.

"kalau dekat US, student Malaysia keje kasto plg popular." - someone's quote.

For me, as long as the job makes money, 'halal' and okay, it's alright for me. Even it is quite a tough job for me.

Custodian - Last weekend

Thank to Allah, there was not much trash at the residence hall. Specifically, me and Aza checked trash at building 28, 30, 32, Baker, Colby and Kate Gleason. So, we finished it around 7 a.m. So, then we were vacuming the A floor at building 28,, 30 and 32. Plus, moping the stairs at Kate Gleason. I have already gotten my badge number too.

Sigh, I wonder how is it gonna be like when working during the students are staying at the residence. I'm pretty sure there would be a lot of trash as they like to make trash and garbage. LOL. Pray for my strenght so I could wake up early and do the trash picking.

Wassalam.

Not in plan

2008-11-23T22:23:00.004-05:00

Peace be upon with you,,

Once again, I just want to write about my daily life last Thursday & Friday. Here we go...

Manche's house - Late evening - Thursday

I went to his house because I was invited to. Fullstop. Nothing other than that. Yeah, I ate dinner, watched tv, chit-chat with him and read book. That's all. But somehow when my eyes looked at my phone, it was already midnight, and the temperature was -5 Celcius I guess. So, it would be better if I stayed there for a night. Hehe. Not in my plan. And I slept peacefully about 1 a.m without switching off the lights. Sorry dude...

On the way going to Skalny Room - Noon - Friday

Waiting for the bus was sucked. Sorry for the harsh, but yeah, no other words to describe. But at last, it arrived at the park point 600++ houses. So, I ran, quickly, to catch it up. Sigh. What a day. Solah Jumaah went through smoothly and amazingly, I didn't sleep at all. After it was finished, I went outside, did 3 things
1. Said goodbye to Joe for his holiday (he is a very kind person)
2. Listened seniors experience sleeding at RC yesterday,,sigh,,
3. Followed Manche' going to Naje's home sweet home,,also not in plan,,

Naje's home sweet home - Evening

Nothing else to do than playing RockBand2. Yup. Then, Manche' cooked 'telur kicap' as our pre-dinner because Hawa would come over and pepare for dinner. Plus, we were really hungry as we didn't eat since we woke up in the morning. Yee-hah. When the sun was slowly faded from my view, more Malaysians came. Yup, it was just like a party I guess. I helped Hawa cooking. But sadly, the rice cooker caused trouble and needed to make other rice. Sigh, but at last, everyone was satisfied. Yeah.

And that night, I just knew that Ijud was going back to Malaysia for her good sake. Sigh, I really wanna know the reasons. But, they told me that I spreaded her story. I was just like,,DUUUH,,,I just knew it by that time....

On the way back to Residence Hall, I enjoyed the view of RIT in white with Manche', Adam, Thirah and Kentang. It was fun too since Adam was talking about something I don't understand till now. Sorry Adam. I was thinking something else at that time.
So, I slept early coz needed to woke up early...

Wassalam.

'What a day'

2008-11-23T08:25:00.004-05:00

Peace be upon with you,

Uhurm,I just want to write my activities and my feelings on last Wednesday.
Once upon a time,,,

On a gray couch,,morning,,

My phone was ringing made me woke up to grab it and answer the call. It was Amer asked me to go to downtown for applying SSN. I nodded means I understood of what was he talking about. My back was still killing me. Maybe I overslept last night. Looking at the pad of my HP laptop, my hand rolled on it to start the screen. Yeah, the were 2 IMs for me. One from RIT member and another one from my family. I read them carefully without blinks. And yeah, I did what the IMs told me to do so even I felt disappointed plus guilty. Nothing more than that.

At Gleason Circle bus stop,,noon,,

Sigh, my heart felt very depressed without reasons. But I still kept talking with my friends about anything. Then, BUS 24 arrived on time and I paid the ticket with a dollar coin. My eyes tried to search perfect spot to sit and I found one at the back. I got to that spot and sit. Enjoying the view outside the bus, I tried not to think anything and let my mind empty.

Downtown of Rochester,,

Nothing much to write, just
1. Met Afnan and Ijud at the SSN place. But Afnan left his I-20,,,LOL,,
2. It was a boring view of the downtown
3. Thought that Shah Alam is better than the downtown
4. Taking pictures in front of library

MarketPlace Mall,,evening,,

Time to release tension. I went for window shopping at Shoe Lockers and Sears. It was not window shopping actually. It was shopping time. Yeah, the output was 2 shoes and a winter jackets. And yeah, the pain was slowly faded away.
And I saw someone in a bus 244 when I was in white bus,,,LOL,,,kantoi,,

Naje's home sweet home,,early night,,

2 main things,,plus,,there were lots of Malaysian people too!!!
1. Dinner
2. RockBand2

Walmart,,midnight,,

Getis followed park point seniors in the car went to Walmart. And there was more chit-chatting rather than buying stuffs. Plus, I didn't buy any.

Room 02035,,

1. YMing
2. Thinking my future life
3. Sigh,,,,talking to myself, 'Apela nasib aku hari nie,'

Wassalam.

Why everything is confusing?

2008-11-19T10:03:00.005-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

When I do something that for me is alright, people would say it is not alright...

When I don't do something that for me is not alright, people would say it is alright...

Which is the right one?

Me or people?

I have reasons why I do and don't..

People have reasons why I should or shouldn't..

Yeah,,
Everything is confusing,,
Which is the right one,,
Either people or me,,
Or,,
Neither people nor me,,

But why?
Anyone?
Anybody?Wassalam

Tagged by iwan,,

2008-11-18T12:51:00.003-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

This is my first time in my life doing tag thingy. Here we go............

1) Do you think you’re hot ?
Nope

2) Upload your favourite picture of you!

3) Why do you like that picture ?
Got my name on it??,,plus,,it's cool!!!

4) When was the last time you ate pizza ?
A week ago,,cheese pizza at Gracies!!!

5) The last song you listen to ?
I gotta find you - Joe Jonas

6) What are you doing right now besides this ?
Blogging, Facebooking, Friendstering, YMing, Eating!!!

7) What name would you prefer besides yours ?
No idea. Shahrizal is already a perfect name!!

People to Tag ( i dont care if youve been tagged! )
Members of RIT and U of R,,never read tag thingy from them,,LOL,,

8) Who is number one ?
Of course Tuhan Yang Satu and Family,,(nak due2)

9) Number three is having a relationship with ?
errrr,,,who's 3??,,no idea,,lantak die,,

10) Say something about number five ?
No idea

11) How about number four?
Also no idea

Wassalam.

Happy On a Snowy Day

2008-11-17T23:02:00.006-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

After listened to the azan at someone's laptop, I woke up. The first thing that came into my head, "What time is it?" And quickly, I grabbed my phone and it was already noon!! Gee. No wonder my back was still killing me becoz of oversleep I think.

The second thing after knowing the precious time, was looking outside the window. My foot reached on the floor and it was cold. I opened the curtain and watched the view outside the house. YES!! It's snowing. Haha. I was getting excited as I grabbed my phone and took pictures on the snow. LOL.

Camwhoring is not that bad as people keep saying that, "Camwhore,,euwwww!!!!!". Whatever.

Snowball!!!

PERKINS GREEN,,(White maybe)

Yeah, even my face is ugly, I enjoy camwhoring!!!,,

Somehow, snow is annoying!!!!,,,

Wassalam.

That is so not me,,

2008-11-17T01:57:00.003-05:00

Peace be upon with you.

As usual, early in the morning, I started to get work at 5am. And surprisingly, I was assigned to pick the trash alone only at Baker Building a.k.a Honors Building. Sigh. It was really dark and scary too (after watched 'mirror') I turned on the light to make it brighter. The day was snowing too. What a coincidence. Wonderful.

I finished my trash pickup at 640am. Yeah it's early because there were little trash except I missed to clean one of the trash room yesterday. Sigh. However, I got caught by senior custodial. He worked with azza, and he asked meto help him. Sigh. It's okay with me as I could learn how to clean the floor by using the vacuum back pack as I needed to hold it at my back. Yeah, it's really killing my back, but somehow I enjoyed it as it made me memorizing my clraning job when I was in High School.

Related to my post tittle, one of the seniors asked me what should they call my me. So, as usual, I would say 'Shah'. However, they said that 'Chuck' is better because

1. It's an American name
2. It's easy to remember
3. Pronunciation is almost the same, SHAH=CHUCK

That is so not me. How come they would think about my name? I have my american name. LOL.
Plus, it's really pissed me off when I remembered the movies that have the name 'Chuck'

1. Good Luck Chuck
2. Larry and Chuck

It's like HELLO!!!...but, I don't mind if they called me 'Chuck' as long as they noticed me, recognized me.

Till the next post friends.

Wassalam.

Working!!

2008-11-15T22:10:00.002-05:00

Peace be upon with you,,

First day working, as a custidial worker at RIT. It's tiring as I need to pick up trash from all of the trash and recycle room in every single floor at residence hall. And the trash were a lot. I could say it as other students were already home yesterday. So, I needed to clean up the mess that they did. Sigh.

However, it's really a good experience. Yeah, first time working in the US. Wonderful though and need to get some money and keep it for future plan. LOL.

So, that's it. Don't want to talk more about work. Just wanna enjoy a 2 weeks break (actually, I'm already bord when there is nothing else to do rather than eating, sleeping, surfing and wathing movies.) Sigh.

Till the next post.

Wassalam

Damn Sleepy,,,

2008-11-13T15:00:00.004-05:00

Peace be upon with you,

Ya Allah,,I'm so sleepy rite now. Coz I was staying at the library for the whole night. It's a cool experience, wahahaha,,first time. After the introbio1 final, it's really make me feel better. No more stress (for this 2 weeks break),,before new challenges from winter quarter come. Sigh.....

Whatever it is, I bet you all are now happy,,(except mior yg sedih when fall quarter gonna end tomorrow),,hurm,,happy holidy!!!!

Wassalam